Compared to yesterday’s post, this is going to be awful. Awful as in miserable and angry.
I disgust myself.
No – I’m not trying to get pity. I am saying here that I genuinely think I am a horrible person.
I broke two people’s trust today. One doesn’t know about it. The other does.
I don’t EVER think. I make promises and then break them and THEN feel guilty. That’s disgusting.
Elm, you are awful. I hate you. All you do is fish for pity. You should NEVER have loved Ash. You should think before you go whining to people about your problems.
BE SINCERE FOR ONCE, you miserable little bitch! THINK about what you do!
Yes. That’s why Ash isn’t speaking to you. Because you are a promise-breaker and you get too carried away with things to THINK about what they might do! What is WRONG with you? WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU!
You’ve done this too many “times. They’ve forgiven you. There is no point any more. You don’t DESERVE ANYONE’s forgiveness. Even if you want it – you’ll say you won’t do it again, but you will. You’ll “want support” and tell people and BAM, friendship over. JUST LIKE THAT. It’s happened before because you can’t keep your mouth shut and you tell people too much, and they tell people and it gets around and you CAN NEVER take ANYTHING seriously! Think I’m joking? REMEMBER ASH!
I honest to god can’t stand me right now. I don’t know how to fix anything. This post is disgusting and I honestly can’t explain the full story because I promised I wouldn’t.
I am a stupid moron who deserves nothing and THAT is the truth of it. I should never have trusted anyone with anything. My mouth runs away with my brain and that gets OTHER PEOPLE hurt.
I couldn’t care less about myself. It’s other people that I’ve hurt and that is unforgivable. I was too wrapped up in my own feelings for Ash to consider anyone else and I was angry and I do STUPID things when I’m angry. HAH! Sound familiar?
Ash was right, before. Nothing he does is a secret. Now every single person will think I spread those rumours. Stupid bitch. I’M a stupid bitch, I mean.
Well, I’m out. I won’t be very responsive today. Ash will probably find out and hate me and despise me and I deserve it.