This has no substance to it. The real post will come – well, I don’t know when.
I’ve been wracked with guilt for the past 2 days over my actions and the pain I’ve caused people. I’ve been terribly confused and horrified over my feelings for Ash.
I half-hate him right now. It’s complicated and I don’t want to explain right now. I feel truly sick at myself even if it technically wasn’t my fault; I was only telling him what he’d asked for.
But I broke a promise to a “friend”. A promise I’d PROMISED to keep. Didn’t work out so well, huh?
I’m so sorry. I need to let you guys know that things aren’t very good right now, but they’re getting better. I think. I need to calm down and I can’t even think properly.
Fuck it – I’m taking the whole damned week off. It’s half term anyway.
Sorry. I’ll blog later and try to catch up on reading your posts.