I hate you stupid bastard what the hell is wrong with you


I hate Ash right now. I hate him so much, he’s an utter bastard so fuck him, damn him, what the fuck!!!

If I’d known THAT was how he felt about me, I would never have said anything! He hates me talking about him, but I guess he couldn’t have returned the favour to someone I thought he wasn’t even close to!

Fucking bastard!

I’m going to ask him what’s going on. I’m running on anger now and I’m not thinking straight and I’m going to pay for that later. But I don’t give a shit. I DON’T CARE.

Apparently I acted like she was bullying and harassing me. FUCK OFF! I was scared. Terrified. Literally he should know that when that happens I could not think straight. That miserable fucking

NO NO NO. There’s got to be another side.

I’ve held on too long. I can’t do this any more. I literally can’t. What have I done to deserve this?

Seriously, what is it about me? What I say? Yeah, that HAS to be it. I’ll just shut my stupid mouth from now on. That would be better for everyone, right?

Fucking hell what is wrong with him! And me? What the HELL is wrong with me?

18 thoughts on “I hate you stupid bastard what the hell is wrong with you

  1. Calm down or you’re really going to regret something. As hard as it sounds, calm down and don’t do anything you know you will regret. The glass is shattered so you must not cut yourself upon the shards. Sweep them up later.
    Why has there got to be something wrong with you? You saying something is just one part but it’s a completely differnt story how someone else understands your words. It wouldn’t be better if you just shut up because saying nothing is just as bad. It’s even worse than saying something that’s wrong. You can rephrase and clarify a sentence. You can’t do that with silence. Don’t always look for the faults in you. Others make mistakes, too. Don’t forget that.

    • It’s difficult to remember that when my image of someone has completely shattered. But thank you, Bino. Seriously, your comments mean so much to me and I need to remember your words.

  2. Elm, don’t make yourself miserable by tearing your self apart over some idiots. They really aren’t worth it. People are going to come and go in your life. People are going to impress and disappoint you. Experiencing disappointment in a person only makes you appreciate your true friends more. Unfortunately, we can’t control other people’s decisions and they’re gonna make mistakes and let you down or make you so angry you want to scream. (Don’t try screaming into a pillow to muffle the sound. It doesn’t work, your family will still hear you ;))

    In a year, you’ll read this post and laugh. Or maybe not. But eventually, you’ll find away to make yourself happy and block out ash. I know that right now, it feels like you will always be angry, but feelings are just that. Feelings. They pass just as quickly as they come.

    Hope things get better lovely x

  3. There’s nothing wrong with you. Your incredible. Something’s just gone wrong somewhere in the universe and you just happen to be caught in it. But don’t do anything irrational because you may regret it. I’m sorry I’m pretty bad at advice.

    • No – you’re GREAT at advice. Thank you. You’re right – I think I need to calm down. Most of the horrible anger has faded now but there is still some left.

  4. There is nothing wrong with you. It’s not your fault and you should try to relax and not mull over this for too long. This might help you realise who the best friends you’ve got actually are! Hope you feel better or at least less swear-y soon πŸ™‚ kidding if you didn’t swear it just wouldn’t be the same πŸ˜€ xoxo

  5. NOTHING is wrong with you. I’m sorry, but this Ash guy really is a horrible influence. I know it’s hard but you have to distance yourself from him as much as possible.

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