It’s been a terrifying day.
Literally. The whole day I’ve been messed up – look at yesterday’s oh-so-cheerful post to understand why that might be.
I’m trying to get over him. STUPID teenaged cliche fucking phrase.
It’s failing. HA! Did you REALLY think it’d work? God, you guys know me well enough by now to know that it wouldn’t work.
I had a chat with my friend Red today. It still counts as a tree name because Redwood, y’know? Er. This is not supposed to have humorous elements in it! Just so you know if you haven’t read EVERY SINGLE ONE of my previous posts (I’m joking) I spoke about Red in this post.
I needed it. To talk to him, I mean. I ran through what happened – still not able to post it here because otherwise I’ll freak.
But I need to breathe. I had too much homework earlier and completely freaked out. I had to breathe. Damnit, Elm, just MOTHERFUCKING BREATHE!
I also talked to another friend of mine – I’ll make a name for him later. He gets it. I was stupid not to trust him with this before.
I’m okay now. Ha, I’m not. But Ash is a bastard right now and I can’t deal with it.
I’m going to talk to my friend Fern tomorrow. She was involved. Not talking to Holly though – GAH, I need to explain this. Not now. Later. Buggering hell.
Sorry about all this. I’m going through a crappy time right now and I’m trying not to take it out on people. Seriously I am SO SO sorry. I hate making you read this.
Makes me feel guilty. Ah well, if you didn’t want to read it, you wouldn’t have got to the end 🙂