Sorry about yesterday. I freaked out and now I look back on it, that post was awful. But thank you SO much for supporting me.
I’m better now. I think. Turns out I AM going to VICTA, but now I don’t want to go because I’ll feel like shit. I’m actually really disgusted with my mother at the moment for various reasons, not least because I blame her entirely for my breakdown yesterday – and it WAS a breakdown, and a terrifying one at that.
But yeah – I’m mostly alright now. Talking to my friends like Red and Odd really helped, and I had a chat with my boyfriend that calmed me down.
Speaking of – it’s unlikely I’ll get to meet up with him before the 20th (which is when I go to VICTA) because dad is working on Tuesday and Monday’s tomorrow and I’m so stressed. I need to meet up him because I have to know that what we have “online” is still there in real life. I’m actually sick of things not going to plan because it’s making me angry. I know that’s petty, but if I could help it, I would.
Annoyingly, I won’t be accepting awards until I come back (that’s on the 23rd). Thank you to ANYONE that nominated me, because it means a hell of a lot. I just feel too stressed and too much is going on in my mind. Sorry again 😦
I kind of want to have a chat with any blogger. If ya feel like it, drop me an email.
Hope you’re all doing great. If you’re not, I’m happy to give advice however I can.
From Elm 🙂