I’m in a weird mood.
Despite all the bad things that happened recently, I feel happy – or rather, content is the best way to describe it. But despite that, there are STILL things bothering me but I don’t know what they are. Does that make sense?
I do know ONE thing, and that’s that I’m grateful to my friends for helping me so much. Not just now, but throughout the years.
I think this stemmed from talking to Odd yesterday about friendship. It was quite a serious conversation – I don’t want to explain it for privacy reasons.
And then yesterday, I was on skype with Red, and he’d looked back to see where he was first mentioned. And he thanked me. It hit me then that if I didn’t have my friends, I’d be royally fucked.
I decided to write this post because of my friend’s post. I guess you could say it inspired me.
I’m going to list times when my friends have been there for me – first of all, a good thing; second of all, when I’ve been upset and they’ve helped me. I’m going to show myself, and them, that every single one will be there and won’t leave me.
Pine: When we share memories from our past 4 years of knowing each other and when we have that reassurance that we know each other so well; I remember when I broke up with my second boyfriend, I was in tears and I was completely inconsolable and she was there and completely understood.
Willow: We have so many inside jokes that it’s ridiculous and whenever we say one, it just makes me so happy; she was there RIGHT through the Ash situation and understands me utterly.
Wren: She gives the best advice, and I know both her happy and sad sides because she’s shown them to me and that means so much; when the Ypres trip was canceled and I was possibly at my lowest point, she was there, and she helped me – if she weren’t there, god knows what I would have done.
Odd: I’ll always remember days when we skyped for hours, creating characters and stories and going on this site – that was what made us closer; she helped me out with so much, like with Ash and Birch and Cedar, and she could never be replaced.
Red: Sitting on a bench in the playground and talking about anything – I remember the first time I trusted him with things because it was terrifying; like with Wren, he was there when the Ypres trip was canceled and knew how to deal with me, and that means a hell of a lot.
I’d write about more of my friends, but I’ve managed to convince myself that they ARE there for me.
This is why I blog. It’s to make myself, and you, and other people and them, feel better in the best way I can.
Thank you, everyone. Over the past few days, you’ve been the most supportive readers and friends I could ever have asked for.
ALSO! I should be meeting up with my boyfriend after I get back from VICTA at some point!!! I’m VERY scared but I’m looking forward to it.
From Elm 🙂