Let’s jump back a year, shall we, when I knew none of you and I didn’t have this blog?
Alright. So, I was 14, and I was going into year 10.
I had a huge crush on Ash – it would turn into love 2 months later. Just THINK about that. I hadn’t experienced ANY of the pain that had come along with it.
I was still hurt over Rowan rejecting me 5 months ago – not angry, just a little sad.
And then, over the next year, things went to shit – and they also improved. Let’s see what happened:
I fell in love with Ash
I gained a best friend, then lost him
I went through too much pain
I became Gemma, then deleted that blog
I started this blog
I got rejected
I became good friends with Red
A friend left our group
I had a two-week long relationship
And you basically know the rest.
Can you see why I’m scared of going to school tomorrow?
I know, over the next 3 months, something bad will happen. Something REALLY bad, because it always does.
I’m just very worried.
A year ago, I hadn’t ever fallen in love. I hadn’t known what it was like to truly appreciate people and that scares me.
My older readers will understand what I mean when I say that from now on, my posts might not be as cheerful. I don’t really know; it depends what happens. For the newer readers – have a look at some of my REALLY old posts to get a feel of what I mean.
I’m going to try and be happy, but this year will be difficult. There will be Ash reminders EVERYWHERE, and on certain days, I doubt I’ll be able to talk to anyone. I’m sorry.
Bare with me through everything, guys. I’m still always going to be here for you. I just wanted to warn you that things might not be so great over the coming months. Stick with me, though?
You’re all great. Stay you, and stay strong.
From Elm 🙂
PS: My first short story on my writing blog is up! 🙂