Let’s jump back a year, shall we, when I knew none of you and I didn’t have this blog?
Alright. So, I was 14, and I was going into year 10.
I had a huge crush on Ash – it would turn into love 2 months later. Just THINK about that. I hadn’t experienced ANY of the pain that had come along with it.
I was still hurt over Rowan rejecting me 5 months ago – not angry, just a little sad.
And then, over the next year, things went to shit – and they also improved. Let’s see what happened:
I fell in love with Ash
I gained a best friend, then lost him
I went through too much pain
I became Gemma, then deleted that blog
I started this blog
I got rejected
I became good friends with Red
A friend left our group
I had a two-week long relationship
And you basically know the rest.
Can you see why I’m scared of going to school tomorrow?
I know, over the next 3 months, something bad will happen. Something REALLY bad, because it always does.
I’m just very worried.
A year ago, I hadn’t ever fallen in love. I hadn’t known what it was like to truly appreciate people and that scares me.
My older readers will understand what I mean when I say that from now on, my posts might not be as cheerful. I don’t really know; it depends what happens. For the newer readers – have a look at some of my REALLY old posts to get a feel of what I mean.
I’m going to try and be happy, but this year will be difficult. There will be Ash reminders EVERYWHERE, and on certain days, I doubt I’ll be able to talk to anyone. I’m sorry.
Bare with me through everything, guys. I’m still always going to be here for you. I just wanted to warn you that things might not be so great over the coming months. Stick with me, though?
You’re all great. Stay you, and stay strong.
From Elm 🙂
PS: My first short story on my writing blog is up! 🙂
Just Call Me Elm or Something 
We’ll always stick with you Elm. I also think about how much has changed in just a year but it seems like you’ve been through way more. Hold your head high its going to be alright. And its alright if your not feeling the same you’ll always be you.
Thank you so so much, Xan 🙂 You’re really lovely.
Its no problem at all anfld thank you.
We’ll stick with you, Elm! 😀 Good luck for school tomorrow and remember your own advice and stay strong.
Thank you so so much, I will! 🙂
Elm, eeeeelm, EEELM!! It`s all about YOU. It`s all about YOUR MIND and how you decide to look at something. If you`re going to be worried and negative, nothing good is going to happen in your opinion. So go to school, be positive and who cares about Ash? Okay, you do, but you know what I mean, haha! Don`t let him change your mood, don`t let him affect you that much. You have to get up and try, try, try. YOU have to do something. YOU are responsible for making this new year good as possible. 🙂
Not Ash or any of your other classmates. GOOD LUCK!! Remember, I`m here anytime. I know how it is.
AHH! Oh my god, you’re so amazing! 🙂 Thank you SO much for that; you’re right! 🙂
YOU are amazing, haha! ❤You`re always going to be welcome, beautiful. 😀
I’ll obviously be here, you have little faith in my loyalty 😉
I have ALL faith in your loyalty, you moron 😛
Good luck for school. We’ll always be here for you so remember that if you’re having a bad day. School’s gonna be hard for me too, but I know that I now have this blog and wonderful people like you waiting for me after school. So I hope tomorrow goes well. Stay strong. Love, Em x
You too, and thank you so much! 🙂
your welcome 🙂 xx
Just because negative things happened last year, does NOT mean they will happen this year. You need to get that in to your mind, ok? Ok. This year could have many wonderful things in store for you, but if you continue to think that something bad is going to happen every time you do or think something, you’re going to miss out on the good fun. And do you really need to tell us to stick with ya? We’re always here, don’t forget xx
Anyways, good luck for school tomorrow, hope the day goes well:)
Thanks so much 🙂 I don’t know, I physically am unable to stop myself from thinking that something bad will happen.
Every time a thought like that pops up, try not to think about it too much. Block it.
I’ll try as best I can 🙂
My mom always says “If you convince yourself that this will be a bad year, it will be a bad year. If you say to yourself that this is going to be a great year, YOU will make it a great year.” Not every year has to be like the last one, but of course there will be ups and downs. Good luck! ❤ (that was supposed to be a heart…)
Thanks so much for that advice! 🙂
All the best! Stay strong and keep hope! As for us, we’re all here for you, whenever you need us. 🙂
Thank you so, so much, for everything 🙂
Anytime, Elm! ❤
Good luck for tomorrow :3 I’m starting year eleven too so we can suffer/celebrate together tomorrow
😉 I’m always here when you need me as is everyone else on this lovely blog community! The past shouldn’t affect what happens now, put it behind you :3 Stay positive tomorrow and stay motivated, it’ll be great!!! Xx
I definitely will! 🙂 Thank you so much – I’ll let you know how it goes. Good luck for GCSEs, haha!
We’ll all still be here when you need us, don’t you worry 🙂 xxx
And it means the world that you would 🙂 Thank you so much.
Don’t worry elm! There is always the chance that this year will be that little bit better, you only have to get through your exams, focus on the good things and the bad won’t be as bad 😊
That’s really brilliant advice, as your advice always is 🙂 Thank you so much, again.
Haha, anytime 🙂
Hope you have a great year, Elm! 🙂
Thank you so much; you too! 🙂
Count on me! I know what you’re going through–especially about the reminders. I think it’s impossible to ever completely let things go. This is a new year, and things will change–maybe even for the better. I can’t wait to see how your story turns out 🙂
Thank you so, so much; your support has always meant the world. I’m glad you know what I mean about the reminders
Don’t worry I will always read you blog and love your posts either way. A year is a lot and we’re all here for you through thick and thin. That’s what WordPress is for. 💖💖
I totally agree – thank you so much! You’ve always been here for me and I think you’re brilliant 🙂 Stay strong yourself.
I will stick with ya!
You’re really great 🙂 Thank you.
Of course we’ll stick with you Elm! ❤ I can't speak for all of your followers of course, but I won't abandon you 🙂 I hope nothing bad will happen and that everything will be alright!
Thank you SO much! 🙂
I will always stick with you! I know going back to school is hard, it is giving me that panicky feeling just thinking about it, but hopefully nothing will happen! Maybe this year will be a good year for you, a year to get over everything. And if anything goes wrong, and I mean even if it is just that your lunch is gross, feel free to email me at any time and I will answer! I will be more than happy to listen (read) to your rants or you venting about ANYTHING if you need it! I know how horrible it is getting flashbacks and how hard it is to get over someone when there are reminders everywhere so I am always here to help!
You’re such a lovely person, you know that? Thank you so much; I’ll definitely take you up on the offer of emails 🙂 You’re great, and you’re such a good friend.
Aww Thank you so much for saying that! It means a lot! And okay! I will be ready to read them whenever you may need me to!