MOCKS ARE DONE!!!!!! Let’s have a virtual party, or something, I’M TIRED I NEED SLEEP.
So now, you get more posts from the Elm, in between bouts of stressing and shrieking. Sounds fun, right? Argh. I’ve missed you all so much but shh, I’m trying to be composed.
Something very weird happened today, or TWO things, but they made me grin. I’m part-happy and part-sad; I should explain.
In our school we’ve got something called PSE – personal social education – and I can’t stand it. I sit next to this girl, though, called… Lily? It suits her. I spoke to her, laughed with her and now we’ve got a comfortable friendship, I think. It’s weird, because I CAN talk to her and I don’t have to worry about all these stupid popularity expectations.
And then in form, we were doing a quiz and I spoke to this other girl – hmm, I’ll call her Sage or something. It turns out that she’s going out with a girl called Grace, and nobody really expected it. We were talking about the imbalance in bisexuality (it’s not just a 50-50 split), and how they aren’t denying their relationship any more (not that they did, but they used to just not really answer either way).
We spoke for ages, and I walked with her to English. We talked about my group and how people aren’t really surprised when or if we go out with each other, because most of the people in our group aren’t straight. It felt amazing to just chat to someone about things, who I hadn’t talked to in ages – and Sage is great, too.
To be known like that, and to be treated like that by two girls who really, I don’t know, feels fantastic. I guess it’s shown me that I can branch out, that it’s POSSIBLE if I just smile and TALK to people. Originally I felt awful and guilty because before, I just didn’t CARE about many people in our year, and then felt ashamed of my younger self, but the past is the past and all I can do is move on from it.
It’s not so hopeless; I CAN make more friends because the year’s more together than I realised. I just have to take more steps to get to know more people, for the sheer fact of finding out how nice humans can actually be.
What I’m trying to say to you is that talking to someone you don’t really know is okay. You end up smiling and making – if not a friend, someone who you can talk to who won’t shoot your words down. And after a while, you’ll get into the flow of conversation and you’ll feel so so happy.
From Elm 🙂
Just Call Me Elm or Something 
Second like! Yes!! Okay…I’ll get normal in a sec 😀
Hahahaha YESSS!
Well done! 😁😂😉 Great post!
Aww thank you so much!
😉 You deserve it!
Thank you so much!
😁
Well they probably figured out how awesome (duh!!) you are and of course,they had to be your friend because you’re a great friend 😉
Aww, you’re so amazing! 🙂 THANK YOU!
Well im glad you had a good day! Well done on getting the mocks over with !
Yay, thank you! 🙂
Yaaaaayyy! Xx
Woooooo!
Yay for branching out and making new friends!
EXACTLY! 🙂
congrats on making new friends! that was always something I had a hard time with, but then I reached out…
p.s. ELM! It’s me! Juliette! I felt like my old account had bad karma since the whole “didn’t make any posts for six months” thing so I made a new one!
IT’s YOU IT’s YOUUUUUUU! I’ve missed you eeek! 🙂
THANK YOU IVE MISS YOU TOO! Hopefully I’m back full time :))))
YASSSSS! What’s the meaning behind the username?
my name :DD
It’s gonna be so weird not thinking about you as Juliette.
ARGH I forgot your old URL omg
anonymously Juliette 😏 but now it’s the real me!
YEAH! 🙂
Glad to see you posting again and congratulations on your mocks!!! And those girls seem really lovely people, I’m glad you met them 🙂
Yay thanks, and me too! 🙂
Tsum
Okay no idea what happened there ^^ but yay!!! It’s so good that your able to make new friends, especially once people have already grouped off as usually people just stay with their friends 😄 you must be a very lovely person!
Ahh thank you so so much! 🙂
Yay well done on finishing your mocks! I start my prelims in 2 days 😦 (its what scotland call mocks)
Good luck; you’ll do great!
Thank you 🙂
Yas congratulations! Ahh I feel like I’m day congrats for an award or something but good job on talking to two new people in one day I know how hard it is
Eee thank you!!! 🙂
This post just made me absurdly happy 🙂 Seriously Elm, leave it to you to bring smiles to everyone’s faces as soon as you arrive. 😀
AWWWW THIS is why you’re amazing! Thank you so much! 🙂
You deserve it all! 😘
YAYYAYYAY MOCKS ARE OVER! Just results now 😉 nah the feeling when they’re all done is so brilliant! And good luck with results 🙂
AHHH thank you!!! 🙂 Part nervous (mostly terrified) and part anticipating the results. But YES I am so glad they’re over!
I hope your results all go OK! But at least it doesn’t matter if they don’t 🙂
Exactly!
I know how hard it can be to talk to new people. Personally I’m awful at sticking to my clique friendship circles
Arghhh, I know how that feels!
WOOOOOOOP congrats on getting through mocks!! And good on you for realising new friends are awesome! 😀 I missed ya even if it wasn’t that long 😛 hehe
YAY THANK YOU! And I missed you too, Luna! 😛
Yay! Glad you’re back! It’s so good to find people who understand you: it can lead to new friends and new bonds.
Yup, exactly! 🙂
how do you talk to new people ???!!!
uggh.
i legit forgot how to make friends !
like whenever i actually think like “ohmygosh. that person must be so nice to hang out with” i mess up and i just end up making things awkward.
how do you do it Elm ! teach me your ways.
ps. how’d your mocks go ? 🙂
I’ve got NO idea how to do it! Just go up and say hi, or talk to a random person next to you in class.
And AHHHH they went quite well!
yay ! i’m glad. 😀
you told me this before too. but like i can do the hi part, but getting a conversation going. i suck at that xp
You don’t have to KEEP it going; just let it flow!
okay.
thank youuuuu !!
YAAASSS!!! *parties with you* . This must be the best feeling in the world, to get done with your mocks:) well done!!
I can ABSOLUTELY 100% agree with you. Sometimes, the things we just need to say it. But really, making new friends is not my cup of tea. I’d rather stay with my close knit group of friends but that’s not correct. I should open up more ….gah.
AHHH I know how that feels! 😦 But STILL, we’ll manage it!
Yes Elm, YOU CAN DO IT!!!
YAHHHH!
IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU. for both the fact that you completed your mocks and that you made friends. making friends is always really hard and a little awkward for me HAHAHA you sound like you had a great day, i love this blog post xxx
Thank you so much, Claudia! 🙂 Thank you.
it’s alright! your blog posts always make me so happy xxx
That makes ME happy! 🙂 xx
CONGRATS ON FINISHING THE MOCKS ELM! Go enjoy your new freedom 😀 I’m glad you’re back in the blogosphere 🙂 I’m happy that you made new friends; they sound lovely!
That they are, and thank you so much! 🙂 Ohh so glad they’re over