Y’know those days where you feel sick and literally don’t want to talk to ANYONE, and you’re frustrated with EVERYTHING anyone says, and then your heart starts pounding and you walk down the corridor and you’re in a haze of confusion and you just can’t and then you start writing a run-on sentence and STOP THE SENTENCE OKAY.
That’s how I felt. That’s how I FEEL? I feel kind of ill, sick, irritated. It’s probably because physics didn’t go so well, and before that I was sat in form and felt excluded as fuck (not anyone’s fault though). I have a choked up feeling in my throat, and an unsteadiness to me that means I am DEFINITELY not feeling my best, but it’s okay.
The highlight of my day, though, was Red and Wren who cheered me up by being themselves, without even knowing I was upset; even I didn’t know I was sad until right at the end of the day. Does that make sense? When things just hit you, SLAP bang in the face, and you can’t decide why you’re feeling so shitty?
In these situations, you’ve just got to let it pass; that’s what I do anyway. I’d suggest talking to someone if it were anyone else, but it’s ME. Perhaps I will, perhaps I won’t.
Arghhhh. Am I just blathering on about bullshit? I hope not. I hope I’ve reached out to someone somehow, because I want to help you through my words.
If you’re having a day like the one I just had, remember that it’s temporary. You might feel trapped and a little lost, as well as just plain queasy (not physically but mentally?), but it’s not permanent. Getting through it – the little things – builds up strength for the big things, where you can’t move for feeling so awful.
Well, that’s my day in a nutshell: confused, upset, MORE confusion, irritated – but with spots of happiness. FUCK, I sound like a weather forecast.
Have you had a good day? GOD, this post is so boring. Think I might go and sleep – and by that I mean read. Or homework. Or SOMETHING.
From Elm 🙂