Today was an explosion of “OMG WHAT DID YOU GET IN YOUR MOCKS TELL ME!!!” and I felt awkward doing that because I felt like I was showing off.
People did quite well – Wren did insanely well, Red too, and Odd and Willow and all the rest, but today I want to talk about Birch. If you don’t know who he is, I sit next to him in history – I used to have a huge crush on him before the summer, but that’s past now (after I got rejected eyy).
So, we still talk, but not like it was before. I have a feeling he thinks I don’t like him, which is ridiculous because he’s a great guy (I’m trying to set him and Willow up to go to prom together, and who cares if they’ve never spoken?)
We were chatting in history when the inevitable question came up: “EYY, what did you get in history?”
Me: “Err, A star?”
Birch: “You got an A star?”
Me: “Yup… What’d you get?”
Birch: “A star for one topic and B for another.”
Me (Hits the table): “YASSS!”
I didn’t show him that inside, I was doing a victory dance for him. I was thinking, “GOD, I’m proud of this guy. WHY am I proud of him?”
And I think I have an answer. In the last one and a half years, we’ve known each other – and not been friends, but he understands me a little. I used to help him with his history, in lessons and for homework, and it almost makes me feel like I helped him a little, to show him he CAN get a high grade in that subject. I’m not responsible for it, but I’m so happy that he achieved something – he’s got so confident over the last year.
Our changes mean we. never speak any more, not with the comfortable tone we used to, but that’s okay. I’m just happy for him, I guess. He was one of the ones that got me through the whole Ash shit without even realising it.
Even when they’re not how they used to be, the friendships and connections you make last, for YOU, in your mind. How I feel for Birch is far removed from what it was, but that doesn’t mean I can’t feel really pleased when he gets a high grade in the subject we both share, both love, and in the subject where we first met and when I realised that living and smiling, rather than being serious, is a GOOD thing. That’s how he helped me.
If he ever saw this, he’d laugh and say it was nothing to do with me, then never speak to me again. Yeah, I didn’t help him get that A, but I’m glad I was around to witness it.
Memories of Birch bring me back to April and May, SO long ago it seems, but being reminded of the past can be a good thing.
Do you have people like that, who you used to love or like and though you don’t at all any more, you’re still impacted by the good things they do?
From Elm 🙂
Just Call Me Elm or Something 
At first I was like, “that’s awkward…” and then I understood you. Congrats to both of you!
xD YAY thank you! And YUP, I give the impression that it’s awkward, but it kind of isn’t.
Haha, yeah. You just have to keep reading
Congrats to both of you.
Thanks! 🙂
would you like to write a guest post for my blog, it would mean a lot. Sorry for bothering you.
Oh, I would love to! Need to put yours up actually
Okay! Look forward to you putting it up
I completely understand that, witnessing someone do well at something they’ve tried hard at is really great 🙂
Exactly! Just makes you feel happy 🙂
Yep 🙂
I think I understand what you mean. Even though people can grow apart, a person you have cared about will never completely be removed from your heart and mind (gosh, that sounds cheesy!). And if you don’t mind me asking, what happened with Ash? It’s totally okay if you don’t want to talk about it, but if you do I’m here 🙂
Aww thank you so much. It’s… Ridiculously complicated, but very long story short, we used to be very good friends and I fell in love with him; about 8 months ago I messed things up and we literally never speak any more. GOD I have no idea how to sum it up. But thank you so much.
Awhh that does sound complicated! And believe it or not, I know hoe messy things can get sometimes. If you ever (EVER) need to just get it all out or talk to someone about it, you know where to find me 🙂
Thank you so much for that; I definitely will. You’re great 🙂
Good! And thanks, if you say so :p so are you!
WELL DONE THAT’S AWESOME!!!! 😀 😀 😀 xx
THANK YOUUUUU!!! 😀
It does feel really great to see people achieving things they’ve worked hard for. Congrats to both of you!! 😀
Aww thank you! 🙂 Yep, I’m proud of him!
Congrats! I definitely had/have someone like that.. 😉
I think we all do, in a way 🙂 Thank you!
Everyone has someone that they feel proud of for some reason or other… I’m very proud of you, and your friend; I’m so glad that your history went well 🙂
Thank you so much! 🙂
You’re so welcome xx
People and friends stay ingrained in your brains its like an imprint. I have had the same experience as well knowing someone you helped has succeeded in life. 😃😃
Exactly; I’m so glad you understand 🙂
That’s amazing! Congrats!
Thank you! 🙂
Yes! I completely agree with this. Even though you have grown apart from them and don’t talk to them as much as you used to, they will always have a special place in your heart so you can’t help but be proud of them and their achievements. Congrats to you both!
Well done in the mocks thats brilliant:D I have someone like that too its hard to explain it 😛 x
I know what ya mean, and thank you!!!
Awww I may not have someone who I feel the same.way about but it’s so sweet your still happy for him.
Aww thank you! It doesn’t matter if you don’t have someone like that – you still understand.