It’s 29 February 2016.
On 29 February 2012, I was a complete moron. You couldn’t find a more immature girl if you tried; I was annoying, rude etc. And now, I’ve changed so much that it’s unreal.
I suppose you’d say I’m a different person. I know what matters, and I’m actually able to take responsibility for myself. I can have upsetting conversations with people WITHOUT arguing and blaming them, in fact, I blame myself most times. I’m still confused and sometimes I get miserable, but don’t we all?
It’s just over 4 hours until 29 February ends, which we won’t see for another 4 years. Why haven’t I made this day matter? Perhaps I wanted to treat it like any other day, but why didn’t I do something good? Should I go and apologise to people I’ve hurt? Hmm.
Why is this day special? It’s an extra day. Treat it like an extra chance, I suppose.
Put it this way: you’ve all done shitty things in your life, that you regret, that you hate and wish you hadn’t done. This day’s like any other, but just think: if you hadn’t done all those things, who would you be today? You’re the person you are now and dwelling on what ifs will just make you miserable.
I wonder, what will things be like in 4 years? Will I be happy, and will I look back on THIS year with sadness?
And the big question is: what kind of awful things are going to happen, that will make me feel guilty, worse than I already feel? The future terrifies me and I don’t know if I want to live in the moment for a bit, or plan WAY ahead.
Oh, I don’t care. What will happen will happen.
From Elm 🙂