I’ve got a little heart, beating,
It stops and starts in fitful bursts,
It asks me why I cry:
I have no answer.
I’ve got a little heart, beating
To the rhythm of my pain,
Waiting for me to crack
So it can heal me, again.
It’s a song to fill the silence.
I’ve got a little heart, beating,
Fear and questions and nothing in between,
Curled in a corner with my hands trapped
In tight, knotted fists,
Giving me strength I can’t ever wield
To combat my dreamless dreams.
I’ve got a little heart, beating,
Shattered and waiting and lonely;
Writing mistakes on papery skin:
Telling me I’ll be okay
Will I be okay?
I’ve got a little heart, beating,
Asking if I’m worth this, telling me
I should just stop, give up,
Asking where I’ll go if it falls apart.
I’ve got a little heart, beating,
Not for me, but for another,
Pushing down feelings so I can be okay.
I’ve got a little heart, beating,
Coming second, always second,
A little child, wondering why.
I’ve got a little heart, beating,
With a hope that won’t fade.
So, that’s a poem-type thing. I hope I can explain what’s going on, maybe in a few days. But I’ll be okay – I needed to get this out. It’s attention-seeking I know, and I’m sorry.
I need to focus on revising, and building up my emotions. I’ll be posting tomorrow because IT’s MY BLOGIVERSARY, but after that, you might not see me for a while. (I know I always say that and then end up blogging, but shhhh).
I hope you’re okay. I will be, soon.
Sorry for the ambiguity in this post. I need to sort things out, really.
Love from Elm 🙂
Just Call Me Elm or Something 
This so amazing, you’re so talented 💞
Thank you very much 🙂
That’s ok 🙂
This is really good! I like the line “Writing mistakes on papery skin”.
Thank you 🙂 The poem’s basically my thought processes right now
Then that’s a creative thought process
I hope it is.
Sure, don’t worry
You are very, very, very talented xxx
Thank you very much 🙂 xxx
I love the poem! Happy early blogiversary, and I’ll miss you if you leave even for a little bit!
Thank you so much! 🙂 Aww!
okay first of all how is your writing so asdkljeshevkarv (amazing) and secondly WUT a whole year that’s awesomeeee and thirdly stop saying everything you do is attention seeking and lastly hope you’re okay. yup 🙂
First, THANK YOU SO MUCH 🙂 Secondly AAAAHHH I know it’s insane. Thirdly – I know, it’s just my automatic response, where I think I’m looking for attention. I’m okay now 🙂
Oh my freaking god that’s so freaking beautifuuuul xxx
Thank you 🙂 That means a lot xxx
Always Elm 🙂 (omg, that has a ring to it)
OMG it does!
YASSS
This is literally perfect.
I’ve got a little heart, beating
It’s happy and content,
But reading this poem,
made it feel lucky, happy and content.
It was beautiful Elm.
This poem was honestly so beautiful and you are honestly so talented. If you need someone to talk to I’ll always be there for you.. you’ve got my personal email so please don’t even hesitate if you need to talk. I hope your doing all good 🙂
Ohh my god thank you so much 🙂 You’re great. You can always talk to me, too
Oh my goshh. This poem is so so so amazing. You’re so freaking talented like WOAH.
And I hope that whatever you’re going through, It gets better. You’re amazing 🙂
And you are too, Selfie. Thank you so so much 🙂
🙂
This is amazing. SO TALENTED, HOW? You’re amazing. Love this. Love you. xx
Love you too 🙂 Thank you. You’re fantastic
It’s SO beautiful ELM
THANK YOU SO MUCH 🙂
You are very welcome! 🙂
hey! I nominated you for this thingy. You don’t have to do it if you don’t want to but here’s the link if you feel like it https://neverlandclub.wordpress.com/2016/03/28/liebster-award/
Ahhh thank you! 🙂 That means so much!
Happy Bolgiversary
Have a great day elm 🙂
Thanks, and have a great day to you too!
I love this! Have a great blogiversary 🙂
(great name)
Awww thank you! Eeee!