11 exams down, 12 to go!!!
I just finished my English Lit exam, meaning that I’M DONE WITH EXAMS FOR A WEEK. All I have to do is do a revision session for history, and then I can go home and half-celebrate.
I’m probably going to do an exam breakdown tomorrow (why the hell am I scheduling stuff AHHH!) and I’ll relax. If you guys want, I can make another voice recording, just chatting? I’ll mke myself feel better a little.
As I promised myself a week ago, I need to let my emotions out. I need to be able to feel really sad about the breakup, and that’s okay, but not right now. I need to numb it until the revision session is done, because if I break now I won’t be able to pick myself up, and I’ll have to hide that I’m not okay. At home, my dad understands, so I don’t have to pretend that everything’s great.
Over the half term, I’m actually going to give myself time to breathe. That’s important. I’ll meet up with friends and blog and revise and it’ll be okay. All I need to do is get through today.
Later, I’m going to post. It’ll be my thoughts, totally unfiltered, because I need to do it. Remember – if you feel like that, make sure you talk about it. Make sure you let yourself WRITE IT OUT, because no one’s judging you. We all need to scream once in a while.
So yeah, this is a warning. I’m gonna let out about a week of pain on here, because I want to, because I can. God knows how it’ll turn out, but I have to remind myself that I CAN help people, I love helping people, but I do need to help myself.
From Elm 🙂