GUESS WHO’s FREE?
Yeah that’s right, it’s ME,
Done the last of 23,
And now I can’t be bothered to continue the rhyme – OH WAIT I’M SO HAPPY!
That was the worst poem song thing I have ever heard or written. Let me cringe in a corner, or NAHH, I’m just gonna celebrate and run round my house screaming BECAUSE I FINISHED MY EXAMS!!!!
The last one was physics – well, the last two – and though the first one went pretty badly, the second was a godsend and I wanted to hug it. When I was done, it didn’t feel real: in fact, it still doesn’t. I was shaking when I got out of that room and felt slightly confused. But IT’s OVER!
I’m really REALLY proud of myself because I have done 23 exams, and I’ve never worked this hard or tried so much in my life. True, I could have done more, but isn’t that true for anything? I know that I did my best, and even when I couldn’t do something, I didn’t totally give up. I gave all my exams the best I could, even that chemistry piece of shit one.
Oh my god, it’s actually hitting me that I’m no longer a GCSE student. I won’t be sitting exams like that for a year – for my AS exams or rather mocks because they don’t count for anything any more. I remember when I had just started, and I thought I wouldn’t be able to get through it. The half term was the only thing getting me through, and when that disappeared, I hung on to some messed up form of determination to keep going through the exams.
It sounds like I’ve done something phenominal. I haven’t, not really; for me, it was an achievement. I did something I’d been dreading ever since secondary school started. I FINISHED MY GCSEs, all of them.
No more physics. No more biology, chemistry, maths, RE, sociology. Or music – that’s the one that’s really sad. God, that’s weird – it’s almost like closing a door, and I don’t like doing that. I’m really nervous of what the future holds, but I might as well live.
My summer is SO long, this year. It starts now, right through to September, when usually it’s just 6 weeks. I have so many plans for it!
First of all, I’m collecting loads of post ideas. Soon, I’m going to do a “summer bucket list!” that will make me cringe uncontrollably, and I need to do some guest posts. This summer, I’m really going to focus a lot on my blog, and you guys too. I’ve missed you so much, and now I can FINALLY relax and actually talk to internet friends properly!
I’m going to Italy on 28 July for a few days (about 8-10 I think) and then I’m buggering off to Thailand for two weeks. I won’t be able to blog much then, but shhhh I won’t think about that.
Wow. I’m free! Sorry, I’m just feeling pretty weird right now. It’s going to be strange, not waking up tomorrow and asking myself what I have to worry about, or which exams I have, what revision I NEED to do or stressing out insanely. It feels like a huge cloud’s been lifted off my shoulders, because exams took a lot out of me.
As well as that, I’m going to be posting a lot about my bullshit “personal life”. Not sure why I’m clarifying that, but I haven’t been doing really personal posts recently and if you’ve come to my blog in the last few weeks, you won’t know that I’m basically known for screaming my life onto a screen, trying not to offend the real life people that occasionally read this shit. Oh well! Just be prepared for me saying how bored/upset/confused I am on a regular basis.
A lot of people will be finished with GCSEs too, but I know further maths and product design (and some science boards) are still going. You’re going to do amazingly – remember not to stress. You’re nearly there. You’ve done most of them, and you can do the rest.
To those who have finished, all I can say is well done. You’re going to do so great, and see? You COULD do it. Don’t doubt yourself, and just enjoy yourself with the summer we have.
Ahhh I am feeling so so positive. I don’t really know what to do now. Any ideas?
Merci for reading all of that! WOAH I’m using exclamation marks a lot; it’s disconcerting.
From Elm 🙂