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FREEEEDOMMM!!!

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GUESS WHO’s FREE?
Yeah that’s right, it’s ME,
Done the last of 23,
And now I can’t be bothered to continue the rhyme – OH WAIT I’M SO HAPPY!

That was the worst poem song thing I have ever heard or written. Let me cringe in a corner, or NAHH, I’m just gonna celebrate and run round my house screaming BECAUSE I FINISHED MY EXAMS!!!!

The last one was physics – well, the last two – and though the first one went pretty badly, the second was a godsend and I wanted to hug it. When I was done, it didn’t feel real: in fact, it still doesn’t. I was shaking when I got out of that room and felt slightly confused. But IT’s OVER!

I’m really REALLY proud of myself because I have done 23 exams, and I’ve never worked this hard or tried so much in my life. True, I could have done more, but isn’t that true for anything? I know that I did my best, and even when I couldn’t do something, I didn’t totally give up. I gave all my exams the best I could, even that chemistry piece of shit one.

Oh my god, it’s actually hitting me that I’m no longer a GCSE student. I won’t be sitting exams like that for a year – for my AS exams or rather mocks because they don’t count for anything any more. I remember when I had just started, and I thought I wouldn’t be able to get through it. The half term was the only thing getting me through, and when that disappeared, I hung on to some messed up form of determination to keep going through the exams.

It sounds like I’ve done something phenominal. I haven’t, not really; for me, it was an achievement. I did something I’d been dreading ever since secondary school started. I FINISHED MY GCSEs, all of them.

No more physics. No more biology, chemistry, maths, RE, sociology. Or music – that’s the one that’s really sad. God, that’s weird – it’s almost like closing a door, and I don’t like doing that. I’m really nervous of what the future holds, but I might as well live.

My summer is SO long, this year. It starts now, right through to September, when usually it’s just 6 weeks. I have so many plans for it!

First of all, I’m collecting loads of post ideas. Soon, I’m going to do a “summer bucket list!” that will make me cringe uncontrollably, and I need to do some guest posts. This summer, I’m really going to focus a lot on my blog, and you guys too. I’ve missed you so much, and now I can FINALLY relax and actually talk to internet friends properly!

I’m going to Italy on 28 July for a few days (about 8-10 I think) and then I’m buggering off to Thailand for two weeks. I won’t be able to blog much then, but shhhh I won’t think about that.

Wow. I’m free! Sorry, I’m just feeling pretty weird right now. It’s going to be strange, not waking up tomorrow and asking myself what I have to worry about, or which exams I have, what revision I NEED to do or stressing out insanely. It feels like a huge cloud’s been lifted off my shoulders, because exams took a lot out of me.

As well as that, I’m going to be posting a lot about my bullshit “personal life”. Not sure why I’m clarifying that, but I haven’t been doing really personal posts recently and if you’ve come to my blog in the last few weeks, you won’t know that I’m basically known for screaming my life onto a screen, trying not to offend the real life people that occasionally read this shit. Oh well! Just be prepared for me saying how bored/upset/confused I am on a regular basis.

A lot of people will be finished with GCSEs too, but I know further maths and product design (and some science boards) are still going. You’re going to do amazingly – remember not to stress. You’re nearly there. You’ve done most of them, and you can do the rest.

To those who have finished, all I can say is well done. You’re going to do so great, and see? You COULD do it. Don’t doubt yourself, and just enjoy yourself with the summer we have.

Ahhh I am feeling so so positive. I don’t really know what to do now. Any ideas?

Merci for reading all of that! WOAH I’m using exclamation marks a lot; it’s disconcerting.

From Elm 🙂

65 thoughts on “FREEEEDOMMM!!!”

  2. I FINISHED MY EXAMS TODAY TO AND I HAVENT BEEN THIS HAPPY IN SO LONG. I can do anything I want without feeling guilty because I have NO MoRE REVISION TO DOOOOOO!!! Enjoy your summer! I think all GCSE kids deserve it 😂 xxxx

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  3. I FINISHED MINE TOO TODAY IM SO HAPPY YAYAY! CONGRATS ON FINISHING 23 EXAMS I ONLY HAD 16 AND I HAD 2 BREAKDOWNS SO IDK HOW YOU DID IT! CONGRATS AGAIN AND I THINKS ITS APPROPRIATE TO HAVE THIS WHOLE COMMENT IN CAPITALS HAHA XX

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  7. Congratulations on finishing your exams! You must be so pleased/proud with yourself right now! I was relieved after doing 6 exams and you had to do 23?!! I can’t even imagine what that must be like! It’s insane! I hope you have an absolutely wonderful summer as you really deserve one! 🙂

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    • I’m so so happy – thank you! 🙂 Ahhh I’m really looking forward to it! And yup, doing 23 was insane – one of my friends has to do 26 I think

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      • You’re welcome! I’m looking forward to my summer too, I always look forward to the summer!! I don’t know about you but where I live (the UK) the weather cannot decide what it wants to do which is very annoying! One minute it’s shorts and vest weather and the next it’s flood water… 😦 Wow, that’s so many! I don’t even know how you can be expected to learn that amount of information! It’s crazy!

      • Yes UK weather is mental! It was raining insanely last night and now it’s what might pass as “sunny”. And yeah, I have no idea how I managed that many.

      • I know! I hate when it’s really raining but at the same time really hot, that’s the worst! Urgh, I wish we could move countries depending on the season like birds… haha!

      • That’d be so good! Migrate to Spain and Italy for summer, or something!
        Ugh it was weirdly humid today but also kind of rainy??? It was so strange

  8. I’M SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!!!!! My freedom post will be up this time next week. Only 4 to go!! Losing the will to live slightly. But Congratulations. Go and have the bestest summer of your life ❤ xx

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  10. Great job on finishing your exams! Yay you!! Have loads of fun this summer and have happy travels to Italy and Thailand. Take loads of photos to post. All the best. 🙂

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  14. Congratz!
    I’ve still got 4 more weeks of work and all my teachers are setting massive projects for no apparent reason.
    My italian teacher wants me to SEW a dress in less than a week =0

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  22. Yayyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hope you did great on all your exams… Scratch that! I KNOW you did good on your exams! Have an amazing summer!!! 😄

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  23. Weyyyyyyyy Elm I know I’m late to the party here but congrats you lucky egg! I’m so happy you’re in the home free now to do whatever the hell you feel like. Enjoy it

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  24. Hahahaha omG this reminds me of when I got done with my GCE’s . And THIS IS EXACTLY HOW I HAD FELT. And getting to read this after two years of my own freedom just made me relive the moment. THANKS ELM! The feeling is just surreal and for a few days you even miss all the stress which has suddenly left your shoulders until you become drenched in the spoilt life of vacations (or at least that’s what happens with me) but yeah, I only started blogging in my A2 otherwise I would have surely put down something similar on my blog.

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