I’m walking down the street. Don’t forget how my body moves, the way my hair blows in the wind and how the light shines over the curve of my jaw. Don’t forget, when I stumble, that I laugh or try to right myself, which usually ends with me shrieking in mortified embarrassment.
They say my laugh bursts out of me, in a cacophany I’m told is ‘cute’. Remember how my voice changes, when the sun sinks below the horizon; think of the soft words I spoke and the heavy truths within them. My laughter echoes in empty hallways, standing beside you by a river, and gripping another’s hand in the dark of a place I thought I would hate. Little words, tiny words, yet still meaningful.
My hair streamed out behind me in the wind, soft as a feather. Remember how that can never define me, for delicacy is something I will never possess – with a once harsh tone, and eyes full of stabbed backs, I was never a pretty flower. I turned to you, sharing a moment of horror, laughing as the notes reached a crescendo in a once war-torn country. Look into my mind, and remember how beautiful that felt; free as a bird and happy as a lark.
The way I pressed the coins into your hand, the last time I would ever stand in front of you as anything more than an acquaintance. Breathing, in the dark, with a shared secret that never passed my lips, nor my hands, nor my heart. The very essence that defined our net of trust, gold then green in its intensity. Before it broke, remember how I was there, present, constant, as the earth.
Fingertips on piano keys. Head held high while the tears fell. Eyes reflected in the fire that we could barely see. An unexpected thank you, shared in the silence of something already broken. Lips upon tentitive lips, once, twice, thrice; guilt fading as the tide washes out.
In a patchwork of memories, you – the you of past and present, the multiple people that have shaped me – fly past. Don’t forget my happiness, stepping out of a changing room and feeling like a queen, with a dress flowing like the ocean. Don’t forget my quiet certainty, a split second before an action that set me on the path of loving who I could.
Small face, little hands, and a smile only when there is no click of a camera. Trying to be in the foreground of a place where you were yourself, free, able to stand up and scream if you wanted to.
I can’t capture me in a post, in a paragraph or sentence or word. I’m more than that, more than a song sung to discordant melodies. Time flows, but as long as there’s breath in the air, it can’t forget me. I can’t forget me.
Though you’re only one among billions, you make memories that will last a lifetime. The simple gestures, laughs and tears live on, in people to come and in the minds of people that will always – ALWAYS – remember who we are, until they’re gone too. It’s a chain of which we’ll never see the end, but it’s okay to realise that we’re just a metallic link.
Know who I am, as much as I do. Don’t let me disappear, in the midst of my turmoil and confusion. Don’t let me be selfish or hurt or angry, and keep these collages of people safe.
Don’t let it fade. Impressions of memories cannot be easily taken away.
From Elm π
This is just beautiful.
You think so? Thank you so much! It took me a while to write because I had to find the right words
It is so poetic and true, as well. You write astonishingly tbh xD
I’m shrieking, thank you!!! xx
It’s true π
Yes Elm β€
Ahhh thank youuu π β€οΈ
Wow, this is amazing! It’s so well written, and very thought provoking! Beautiful, truly. β€οΈπ―
Really? Thank you! Took me such a while to write so I’m so glad you liked it! πβ€οΈ
Yes, really. I feel like slapping you with a fish for not believing me the first time π. You’re so talented in writing, and your style is so clear and sharp. All that time you have invested in this post really paid off as it is flawless and perfect in every way.
Yes, Elm, really xx
I want to give you a huge hug right now because you are SO KIND and fantastic! β€ You make me happy xx And I believe you now! At least I think so hehe
Oh my god, Elm, this was amazing! So wonderfully written, and described so well. Every word was in its place, every phrase flowed together, and I’m really speechless at how to say how much I love this!
And I LOVE and always will your comments! Aditi, you make my day all the time! π Honestly I’m SO happy you liked it!
Yayyy π I HAD to write that comment for you, the writing was so good!
Eeek thank you!!! You make my day
Wow this is really lovely!! I can imagine the time it took you to think of all the right words but very well chosen! – Nicely written π
Ahh, thank you so much! So glad you liked! π I wanted to get the right message across
This is perfection
Aww, thank you so much! So happy that you thought that π
This was GREAT E!
Eeek thank you Aspen, you fabulous person! π
You know a post is really great when it makes you FEEL things, and this one definitely did β€
Honestly, I’m so glad of that. I wanted to get as much emotion in as possible π
In that case, you did good π
Yay thank you! π
No prob β€
There’s something about your way with words that is just beautiful. I’m in awe, Elm π xx
The fact that you wrote that makes me so happy π Thank you!
No problem – you deserve it π
Uhm, can i have your autograph when you publish your novel??? π x
I WISH I could publish a novel! Thank you you amazing person!
I freaking love this β€
And I LOVE your comment! π You’re the best!
Haha no way, you are so talented and amazing dude!!!<3
Eeekkk thank you insanely! π you’re so lovely
Says the lovely one :P!
Oh shh, but thank you! π
I loved thisβ€οΈ
So deep and beautifully composed
It has a lovely flow n story to it
Loved it! β€οΈβ€οΈππ½
YAAAAY so happyyy you did! π It took me a while and I’m just so glad people like it eeekk! Thank you again β€οΈ
Such amazing descriptionsβ€οΈ Beautiful.
Thank you, Lucia! You’re great β€οΈ
That was just so beautiful!! I love it!! β€ β€
Aww really? Yay thank you! π That means so much!
Yeah, really!! And no problem, you’re great!! β€
Eeek thank you!
No prob!!! XD
This was so beautiful! Loved the way you weaved the words!
I tried to make it convey my emotions. Thank you; I’m so happy you liked it!
That was truly incredible Elm!! Haven’t been inspired by a piece like this for ages π
Awww that makes me unbelievably happy! I’m so glad you liked!
That was truly beautiful β€
I’m really happy that you think so! Thank you π
You’re so awesomely talented. I can’t even.
And I can’t even at how kind you ar π Thank you, Selfie!
Aww…thanks π
This is so beautiful! I loved reading it- your style of writing is amazing!
Ahhh, thank you so so much! π
I think you laugh is awesome. And it’s so wonderful the way you describe things differently from most ‘seers’ should I say
You think so? Thank you, Mon! Yeah, I guess I approach it from a different angle π
Woww!! This is one BEAUTIFUL peace. I’m in awe aha! xx
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Eeekk yay thank you so much! π So happy that you liked!
Oh my god this gave me literal shivers down my spine, it’s written so amazingly! Please write more like this π
I definitely will π Thank you SO MUCH, it makes my day that you liked it so much!
I’m so glad! Trust me though, it was truly amazing π
I cannot even express how I feel about this post in words. Just simply stunning and so so meaningful β€
Thank you so so much, I’m SO glad you think so π β€οΈ
Coming across this was the best thing about today. π
I am SO happy you said that! Thank you π
You are so talented Elm. This is absolutely beautiful!!
I am so, SO happy that you think that, Ruth! Thank you so much π
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You’re so mean, Elm, making me read such beautiful things T^T
Jk, but really, this is too beautiful TT^TT
(I missed you btw, sry I was inactive)
HEY YOU, I’ve missed you so much! π How’ve you been? I’m so glad you liked this; thank you, you amazing person!
Oh I missed your sweetness!! I’ve been well, you?
Yeah, same! And aww I’ve missed you too!
This is absolutely beautiful. You described those feelings with just the perfect words- usually I have to sit at my laptop and hunt around to find a good phrase. But you did it perfectly, you talented, beautiful unicorn.
No, YOU’RE the talented unicorn, my friend! Honestly you make me smile, and I’m so happy that you liked my words.
Awww, Elm! No problem; you make me smile too :). We can be unicorns together!
This was absolutely beautiful
I’m so happy that you think so – thank you! I love your blog by the way π
no need to lie lol x
If I was lying, I wouldn’t have said anything π x
This is wow and wow. It’s so beautiful, you’re a genius!
I wouldn’t say I was, but thank you so much all the same! You’re great π
I’m honestly so in awe of your writing Elm! The way you expressed yourself was so unique and I absolutely loved it! You, my friend, have a true talent! xx
Oohhh thank you so much! You make me smile so much π xx Thanks again; so glad you liked!
No problem! And I’m glad I can make you smile π
This is so… tranquil but so… I don’t even know why or if this was intentional, but it kinda seems like there is an undertone of sadness and maybe even like the person who is talking has come to grips and is at peace after something has gone horribly horribly wrong….
Just me? oh shoot…
You’re pretty much right. You know when I talk about “you” in the post – that’s not just one person I’m talking about; all the different sentences and paragraphs relate to different people and situations in time that I’ve experienced. It’s me, coming to terms with things, and not forgetting who I am in the process.
WOAH I’ve just realised, I didn’t mean to do this when I wrote it but now I’m thinking about it, it was me trying to tell myself that every single person who I spoke about then, no matter how big or small, has helped me not to forget me by remembering me.
OH! That makes sense! Wow, that was about you? That makes so much more sense! Okay awesome, thanks haha.
Any time! π Glad. I could offer some clarity!
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This is so beautiful!
Thank you so so much! π Yay so happy you enjoyed it!
This is incredible! I keep re-reading it and it’s just such a beautiful post- you’re an amazing writer!
Thank you so much; I’m glad you think that! You make my day π
you really should be paid for this, actually this is priceless, this is just amazing ahh. sorry i’m just, can’t handle the beauty. you’re so amazing :O SO talented agh must bookmark this and frame it
This is really amazing. You’re so talented ^^
Thank you β€
AHHH I love YOUUUU you’re so fab! π Thank you SO much! I’m so happy you liked it eeekk!
haha XD your welcome ^^