Not going to lie, I’m very mildly terrified, because today is Prom. As in TODAY. WHAT. THE HELL.
It feels like I’ve been preparing for this for so long, and I’m worried it won’t live up to expectations. To be honest, I think I’ll just wing it – because I’m nervous, I think I’ll run through the plan.
I’m going to get my makeup, hair and eyebrows done at 2. HELP!!! I don’t know what I’m doing. On Monday, I got my dress properly adjusted so that it ACTUALLY fits, which made me feel great. Trust me: I never get fully made up, so this will be a weird first for me.
Red and I agreed to go with each other, as friends, over a year ago. That’s still going on, so I’m going to his house at about 5:30. After that, and after his mum and mine take about a billion pictures, we’re going to Pine’s house (my oldest friend from secondary school) for a sort of pre-prom.
Here’s where it gets complicated. Originally, I was going to go to my friend Holly’s. My entire friendship group’s going there, but I decided to go to Pine’s because Red and I both just wanted to. Pine’s always been there, and I am SO grateful to her for everything she’s done. I feel unbelievably guilty for just abandoning my group, and I love them so much; I don’t want them to think that I hate them because that’s as far from the truth as you can get.
I’m getting even more nervous now, but a friend of mine – S – said I’d be totally fine so I’ll TRY and believe them. Breathe, Elm, breathe!
After the Prom, I’ve roped myself into going to an afterparty. WHATTTTTT!!! I was going to go to Holly’s, but I decided not to because when will I ever get the chance to go to a proper party again? It’s undoubtable that there will be drugs and insane amounts of drinking, but I’m okay with that.
There’s just one minor, tiny, TOTALLY INSIGNIFICANT issue. It’s hosted by Ash and one of his friends. The Ash. The fuck am I doing? He said it was totally fine that I could come, but still, I’m SO incredibly scared because:
1. It’s Ash.
2. I hate drugs.
3. I’m scared Pine will abandon me (I doubt she will).
4. It’s my first REAL party after Ivy’s birthday one.
When it comes to things like this, I’m a total disaster. Today, though, I’m just going to LIVE my life and to hell with the consequences. It’s rare that I let myself go, let all my inhibitions fly away, because I’m scared of losing control.
If I “get with” someone, that’s okay. Now’s a good enough time to do it, because it’s Prom and I’ll actually feel confident. Who knows what’ll happen? All I know is that tomorrow, there will be a long post, detailing exactly what went on the night before.
Elm, at a party? HAHAHAA! Elm, kissing random people and not feeling miserable afterwards? Woah, holy shit! I’m telling myself it’s not wrong to do that, because I won’t be playing with people’s emotions and it’s fine. I can do this.
Although I’m nervous that my dress will look terrible, my makeup will go wrong or my hair will look like a train wreck, I’m just going to enjoy myself. Maybe it won’t live up to how I wanted, but I’m going to get as much out of this day as I possibly can. Why not? I’ll be with my friends, and with people I can get to know; I’ll be free to actually show my year what kind of a person I am.
I want them to see me, and I want myself to truly appreciate who I am. This is long overdue, and now’s the time to do what Birch always said: live.
From Elm 🙂
Just Call Me Elm or Something 
Prom is awesome. Have a great time and enjoy yourself! You will look amazing. Stop looking at what might go wrong and think about everything that will be amazing!
I will, I promise! 🙂 Thank you so so much! I hope it’ll be a great night.
woop woop, Elm’s going to PROM and she’s gonna have an AMAZING time!! stop imagining the worst case scenario and start imagining the good stuff. like you said, LIVE.
I WILL, I DEFINITELY will! 🙂 Living is great; I just want to let myself be free and be happy. I’ll tell you all what happens!
Prom is so amazing! I thoroughly enjoyed myself and I didn’t even decide to go until two weeks before the actual day! So don’t worry, it will be so good. Hope you have a fab time 😊 x
Ahhh thank you! I’m so glad you enjoyed yours 🙂 I’m really looking forward to this! xx
Ahhh have a great night! Can’t wait for the post tomorrow have tons of fun and stat safe Elm xx
I definitely will 🙂 Thank you! xx
Hhahaha you’re hilarious. You’re going to have a great time!! I bet your friends might miss your attendance slightly at the pre-prom, but they definitely shouldn’t mind that you want to go to Pine’s house. Enjoy prom while you still can and from what you wrote, you seem to be doing that just fine! If you’re worried about being alone, just talk to Pine and ask her if it’s okay to stay next to you for a while Bc u know, Pine probably needs her own fun too. Hahha enjoy!!!
Yesss thank you! 🙂 It was so so great honestly I loved it.
Have an amazing time!
Thank youuu, Lucia, I had so much fun! 🙂
I’m glad!
Omg I hope you have an absolutely brilliant time and I bet you’ll look beautiful!! 🙂
I really, really hope so! 🙂 Thank youu!
And also it was AMAZINGG!!!
YAY I’m so glad!
Prom is like a right of passage I think! Enjoy it for what it is and try and enjoy the after party bit. Don’t feel pressure to do anything you don’t want, just have fun with your mates, but if you want to get off with someone, do it 😉 (That was the first time I ever got off with someone at a party and although it was awful, it’s not a regret!) xxx
I’m glad! Regrets are horrible and you learn from every experience! Yeah, it was so good; I didn’t go to the afterparty though because I was SO tired
I didn’t go to prom, definitely not my thing ahah
hope you have a great time!
Thanks so much – I really did! 😀
That’s great! It’s nice to have that experience with your friends 🙂
Breath Elm! I’m sure you’ll look beautiful and you’ll have a great night. Good luck and I hope you have fun! 🙂
Awww thank you so much, Reine! It was amazing and I loved it! 🙂 Ahh!
Go have fun Elm ^^
I very much did! 😀 Thank youuu!
That’s good to hear!
I don’t know what to say cause i’ve never been to parties nor am I interested, but you are going to have a great time. Enjoy your years. I know your beautiful. Just stay away from drug stuff and have fun cause again, these are your years ^^ Tell us how it goes ^^
It was so so sooo good, though I didn’t go to the afterparty! Oh well 😀 Ohh thank you so much I really hope I did look good!
It’s my prom tonight too! I’m pretty nervous but I’m meeting up with friends beforehand and then having a sleepover afterwards (not going to the afterparties because it ends at midnight). I’m sure you’ll have a great time!
I REALLY really did! How’d yours go? 🙂
It was great! I was worried about it being 5 hours long because I didn’t know how we’d fill the time but the meal and photos took a while and the dancing was more fun than I thought 😊
Hahaha same! Time really did go quickly – at least I thought so!
Good luck! I’m sure you’ll have the time of your life.
-Dani ❤ 🙂
It was so so amazing! Thank you 🙂 Eeekk!
😊
Have a great time!! 😊❤️
I very much did!! Thank you ❤️❤️
Good luck have a great night!
Thanks! I did 🙂
Elm, you’re going to be BEAUTIFUL! And you’re going to have so much fun!
Just stay safe, okay? No drugs? Sorry, I feel like an overprotective mother 😀
I did stay safe because I didn’t go to the afterparty 😀 And nahh it just shows you care! I had a lovely time 🙂
OMG you’re gonna slay!!!!have lots of funxx
I diiiid friendy!!! Thank you 🙂 xx
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYY!!aww, your welcome:)
Prom is definitely one of the most fun nights in high school! As long as you spend it with people you enjoy you’ll be totally fine. I’m sure you’ll look gorgeous!
I really hope I did! 😀 Thank you so so much! I had such a fab time!
Have fun! I’m sure it’ll be great! xx
It was so so good! Thank you!! ?:)
enjoy yourself, you bloody deserve it!
Ahhh thank you so much!!! 🙂 That means the world! I had so much fun xx
Good to hear!
have fun! looking forward to the post about what happens 😉
It was honestly so so fun! I should be posting what happened after lunch, so in about an hour 🙂
have fun! don’t think negatively :’D
I won’t – and I DID have so much fun! It was honestly such a great experience 🙂
So proud of you that you stepped out of your comfort zone like this, Elm!! I have trouble letting go too, but it’s the best thing ever 😀
It actually is! I had such a great time 🙂 Though I didn’t go to the afterparty, I still enjoyed it immensely!
So happy for you!! I knew you would 🙂
Yayy!
Omg I hope you have the best time you deserve it so much. You will look gorgeous hunny! ❤❤ also you better be doing a post all about it soon else I will be mad 👌
I WILL, I promise! It’ll be up in about an hour, probably? There’s so so much to write! I had such a great time and I really hope I looked good! 😀 Thank you! xx
Looking forward to reading it lovely. And of course you looked gorgeous, why on earth wouldn’t you. I’m so glad you had a great time 💕
Awww thank you! 🙂 I dunno I just always worry!
That’s fine, and don’t worry. So do I, everybody does 💕
SO glad I’m not alone! 🙂
You’re never alone hunny ❤
YAY have fun Elm! I guess… just don’t think too negatively; if you let them twirl around in your head, it’s going to impact your experience. Trust me. So just think about having fun! Also, stay clear of drugs and stuff. Uh-oh, my overprotective mom side is coming out. Hell, I might as well call you “dearest”.
Have fun & enjoy yourself, Elm dearest! (fuck yes, I called you “Elm dearest”. Believe it.)
I am now Elm dearest, according to the great Hanna! 😀 Honestly though, I had such a great time. No drugs OF COURSE, because I didn’t go to the afterparty – even if I did, no drugs for me! UGH, who need ’em anyway. Not me!
Eeeek I’m gonna write a post in about an hour explaining what happened!
Aw, I’m not that great :S. Good job avoiding drugs, though I have no idea why you would do them in the first place. Can’t wait to read your post!
Honestly for me, drugs are just pointless and kind of horrible too. I won’t them trust me
Yeah, I KNOW you won’t :). I’m seriously so anti-drugs… I remember learning about them in health class. I had an argument with this asshole guy in my class because he was like, “Why wouldn’t you like the feeling at getting high?” I was like, “Oh, I don’t know. You have no control over your actions and it could ruin your life?!”
Yeah, exactly! Plus, it can have serious health consequences, depending on the drug.
YOU GO ELMM! SLAYY ‘EM ALLLLL ❤
I WIIILLLL IT WAS SO GOOOOD!!! Eeekkk!
OMGG HEY YOU’RE BACK??? I’ve missed you!!
YAY IM GLAD U HAD FUNNN
OMFG ELM AT PROMMM I CANNOTTTT
I hope you have the time of your life! Did it go well? Ofc it did
It did it diiid check your whatsapp it was so so fab!!! 🙂 Eekk I’m so happy!
Have a great time!
Make the best memories
N slay girl ❤️
Waiting for the detailed update on how ur evening went 😜
It went so, so well! I’m so happyyyy! 🙂 Thank you so so much! The update should be coming in, hmm, about an hour?
Have tons of fun and please look after yourself!!! ❤
and I just realised you posted this yesterday :’) XD sorry, hope you had fun though!
Hehe no worries!
I did and did! :DD Loved it!!!
It makes me happy to hear that. ❤
Yay Elm! I’m sure you looked absolutely amazing and I hope you had a great time! Can’t wait for your update 🙂
It was GREEAAATTT! And I’m just about to start writing it 🙂
🙂
Hope you had a splendid time! Can’t wait to read all about it!
I just posted a mammoth of a post explaining! 😀
[…] Here’s the update that I promised yesterday. It’s a long post – not because something HUGE happened, but just because I like to […]
Hope all went well for you at Prom! I’ll head straight to the next post and read all about it!!
It was so great! 🙂
That’s good to hear 🙂
I love your posts! Aren’t you scared some creepy kid in your school is going to find your blog though? XD
Oh my God thank you! And yes, all the a time. Its bloody terrifying
I bet it is! Your’s is about life which makes it a whole lot scarier if some jobless creep tries to figure out who’s who, acronyms or no.
Yep exactly! And I do a TERRIBLE job of staying anonymous, which I should fix. Like I NEED to fix that. And cause it’s about life, there are so many things on here that’s personal and anyone from school finding it would be disastrous.
I’m really astonished at how wonderfully clear your diary-ish blog entries are. My diary is just emotions all over the place XD
Honestly mine is too! But I’m glad you think it’s clear; that means a lot 😀