My Prom Night!

Hellooo! Here’s the update that I promised yesterday. It’s a long post – not because something HUGE happened, but just because I like to write a lot.

I’m going to run through what happened, start to end, and then explain my thoughts and feelings (if I haven’t already within the post). Just to say, I DIDN’T go to the afterparty after all, and I’ll explain why in a bit.

First of all, I got my hair and makeup done. It was at this adorable little place in the town next to mine, and the ladies who made me up were so lovely. I kept on making jokes about how inexperienced I was at even doing makeup, whenever they wanted to know what kind of eyeshadow I preferred. I also had my nails done (they used an awesome UV lamp to dry them which was about my favourite part), and also my eyebrows waxed which really didn’t hurt as much as I thought it would. Better than getting it threaded, because apparently that hurts to hell.

I’ll give you a little description of what I looked like, as I can’t show a picture (because anonymity). My hair was curled so that it fell in waves, with two plaits secured at the back of my head with pins. Some hair was brought forward, so that it hung over my shoulders, and the rest of my hair fell down my back. My nails were sort of a red colour and were sparkling/glittering, and they matched my dress. Getting it all done made me feel amazing, like I was properly beautiful and that I didn’t have to be ashamed of anything. I remember walking out of the place, into the slight drizzle and just feeling powerful, floaty and different.

After that, I went home, put my dress on and went to Red’s house. I was constantly paranoid that my hair would be ruined, as it was raining (love you too, England) and that we would be late (because of traffic). Red’s phone’s buggered so I couldn’t text him to tell him I’d be slightly late. We eventually arrived, and when I opened the door the reaction from Red’s mum made me grin like a moron because she was the first person, apart from my parents, that have seen me in the flesh with my dress on.

Because my mum is obsessed with the idea of me having a “date” (even though he and I went as friends), they took about a million photos. I had to perfect my smile, which I STILL can’t do because it either looks fake or like I’m in pain. Oh well! It was really nice to just be standing there having your photo taken – plus, Red gave me the most adorable corsage (which I then didn’t wear at prom itself because I’m a dick) but I loved it and it matched my dress and ahh!

Luckily, I hadn’t changed my mind at the last minute and gone to Holly’s thing, so Red and I were driven to Pine’s house. Thank god for that, because I had so much fun. I don’t often involve myself in that group, but I’m going to next year because they are so so lovely. Daisy was there – a girl I used to hate – but also Cedar… Yeah, the Cedar I used to have a huge crush on, who now very much fancies Pine. Whoops.

In the process of staying at Pine’s, I managed to smash a really nice champagne glass (thanks Red), nearly fall over in my heels, almost forget my bag and then have a tiny crush on Cedar once more. He kept on moving closer to me on the sofa, but I know that was because he wanted to move closer to the others. Ehh well; I still had such fun because I laughed insanely when we had to take pictures, and just at the banter we had.

We went to Prom in a camper van, which was fucking awesome. It didn’t have any seat belts, so me, Daisy and another girl were on a long seat, gripping onto each other, and Pine and our other friend were on the floor (the boys went in a separate car). There was a lot of screaming and laughter, but my favourite part of the journey was when Daisy and I spoke. She and I have had our ups and downs but to be honest, I think she’s really awesome. She’s been there for people so much, and when we were talking, she said that I was really kind and that I always tried to be there for everyone. That made me unbelievably emotional, because I just want to leave year 11 on a high point with as many people as possible.

The Prom itself was at a hotel. It was drizzling again, and somewhat cold; after a horrendously long queue to get in, we got out of the van (and I nearly tripped over Daisy’s dress), stood around in the rain and then finally got into the building itself. Walking past teachers, whilst they compliment you on your outfit and you’re surrounding by the chatter and laughter of people in your year was the best feeling; it made me feel invincible. Though I still had trouble walking in my heels, at least I didn’t fall over.

After that, the events become more hazy. The room in which the Prom was being held was small compared to the size of our year, with a carpetted floor and food outside (it was so stressful trying to get said food, and we ended up jumping the queue to be next to Red). There was loud music – which, coupled with the din of people yelling and exclaiming over dresses and clothes – made it so bloody difficult to hear myself, or anyone around me.

Highlights of the evening include:
Wren running up to me and attacking me with a huge hug whilst we both screamed about our dresses
Going to a photobooth with Pine and her group
Going to the same photobooth and getting pictures with Wren (I don’t know what I’d do without her; she makes my day every day).
Getting photos with Wren and Red, where we had stupid props on and looked so moronic that it was hilarious
Dancing with Odd where they span me round and we both went crazy
Standing outside when I needed fresh air, and feeling the wind on my face whilst people laughed around me

It came to my attention, quite horribly and unexpectedly throughout the night, that I really – and I mean REALLY – wanted to get with someone. Because I’m insane and I like getting the piss taken out of me by my real life friends, it’s the guy I talked about in this post so if you haven’t read that, you should (she says, self-promoting like a pro). It came as a horrifying realisation: I’ve always had a slight “fascination” with Sycamore, as he’s always been so kind but also, he’s in a different group to me. I don’t know how to explain it. There was me, pissed off and frustrated because I KNEW nothing would happen: I didn’t see him all night, and I knew he wasn’t going to the afterparty. In addition to that, Prom’s not really the place where you “hook up” with someone as I expected it to be just hanging out with friends, rather than kissing people. I just wanted to kiss him, to know what it was like, and to prove myself I COULD. Is that fucked up?

The most emotional part of the evening was when I said goodbye to Cedar. He was also someone who I half wanted to have something with, and though I didn’t do anything with him, he found me at the end of the night. For a few minutes, we had a lovely conversation that ended with this:
C: Okay Elm… I have to go now.
E: Ehhh okay, see ya!
C: So, have a nice life.
E: Eyy c’mon, give me a hug.
So we hug for about 30 seconds, with me just breathing and trying my best not to cry because as much as I don’t have feelings for him, I care about him so much. He trusted me with how shit he felt about the Pine situation and as we hugged, I was pretty sure he was remembering that. AHHH I still feel emotional.

I spoke to Willow loads as well throughout the night. We were standing outside the main room, hugging like crazy and just holding each other and talking. I will never, ever forget about her because she’s so fab; we just wandered around at one point and I told her about the Sycamore situation (that has a nice ring to it) so that she’d understand how frustrated I was. ALSO, I’ve been screaming for the past 12 hours because the person she’s fancied for ages and her kissed and I won’t say who that is because privacy, but it’s so so lovely and I’m so happy for her because she deserves it! She and I spoke on the phone about it, amidst me squealing about how adorable it was.

When Prom was ending, I felt even more emotional. There was elation, because I’d spent time with friends and had the best time, but also a slight disappointment because of all the things I didn’t do. I won’t dwell on that, though; I still have time to do whatever I want. We went back to Pine’s house, dropping Red off on the way, and I was so incredibly tired that I could barely move. My feet were aching like hell because of the heels, and I nearly fell on Red at one point because I could barely stand upright.

Pine and I didn’t go to the afterparty, as I was so tired. In a way, it was lucky we were both not there, as it got shut down by the police at 2 which kind of makes me laugh, though it shouldn’t. Because of that, I stayed over at hers and we talked for about an hour before going to sleep. It was about everything: Willow (because I shrieked when I found out about her romantic moment), people, how we’ve changed, life and pretty much everything else. As I did with Willow and Wren, I told her about Sycamore and she was totally fine with it, and even said she’d organise something in the summer where we could all hang out. I’m so glad I have Pine still here, because she’s great.

All in all, I had a brilliant night. Spending time with friends, especially Odd, Red and Wren, made my entire week. I won’t be forgetting about this in a hurry, and I’ll always remember the crowds, the loud music and how I just felt included.

So many people complimented me on my dress, which made me feel great because I’d put effort in. Maybe I wasn’t the most stunning, but I was pretty enough for me, and pretty enough for me to feel like I really was. According to loads of other people, everyone’s dresses were gorgeous (Willow’s, Wren’s, EVERYONE’s) and it was so nice to see that people were happy when others told them, “You look so beautiful!”

I may not have kissed anyone last night, but that comes second to having a wonderful time. I had one, but happiness doesn’t mean having both; it means having enough of one to feel like you can do anything.

From Elm πŸ™‚

99 thoughts on “My Prom Night!

  1. *constantly refreshing wp to see when this post is going up* I’m glad you had a great time at prom, I enjoy reading about other people’s experiences at prom because I chose not to go to it despite having the option so I can experience it through different people if that makes sense. Prom just is and never will be for me

    • I can totally understand that, especially getting the experience through others. I would think Prom wasn’t for me, but it turns out it is? Strange, that.

  2. I have literally had a huge binge of your blog as it is legit like reading an amazing book! I’m glad you enjoyed your prom! Mine was a week ago now and looking back on it, I really enjoyed it as there was lots of dancing and then a load of my friends went back to my friends house and we did similar to you, just talked until four in the morning! However at the actual prom I got really upset because I broke up with my long term boyfriend two weeks ago and then at prom he was just constantly flirting with this girl which I thought he had something for when we were going out and it upset me. But I decided to just screw him and forget about it and then I enjoyed it. Sorry for the long comment πŸ™‚

    • Emily oh man! He sounds so awful for doing that and I’m so sorry 😦 You can email me if you’d like about it because I understand.
      But it’s great that you had a good time! You NEED to have that, with your friends, because it helps. I just love talking to people until 4 in the morning; it seems like the best conversations happen at night.

  3. it’s 1am and i made the mistake of checking wp before going to bed, ze prom post could not wait! i’m so glad you had fun and enjoy yourself and everything! πŸ™‚

  4. I’m so glad you enjoyed it! Don’t worry about not kissing anyone, having fun with your friends is what matters the most πŸ™‚ And I completely understand your Sycamore situation, I’e had something completely similar!

  5. wow, i loved reading through that, didn’t even realize it was long πŸ™‚
    AHHH!!! YOU DID IT ELM! You survived Prom, enjoyed it even. Me so so happy for youuu!!
    And just btw, I think we all have fantasies of ‘getting with’ someone. You’re not alone, Elm

  6. Reading this has made me not only realise exactly how upset I would be to leave my friends in Year 11, but also appreciate and treasure my current friends in real life. Also,I have no doubt you looked stunning and I’m so happy for you for having such an amazing time! πŸ™‚ BTW, late night conversations are the absolute BEST! xx

    • I know how you feel on that! Remember that you can still keep in touch though, and you’ve got a bit to go before year 11 so you’re all good! πŸ™‚
      I really hope I looked good. Thank you SO much!
      Ahh I love late night conversations. You can just say things that, for some reason, you wouldn’t normally say in the daytime.

      • Yeah, until then I’m good πŸ™‚ I know for a fact that you looked WONDERFUL Elm! And those are my thoughts precisely!

  7. This post really didn’t feel long… I don’t know how to describe it. It’s like when you get a really long book that you’re interested in and you’re like, “ack this is long” but once you start reading it, it doesn’t seem long at all? That’s kind of what it felt like, reading this post.
    I’m sososo happy you had a great time!! I also relate about the tripping, breaking glass, and feet-feeling-numb-because-of-uncomfortable-shoes. Check, check, and check. Well, no more negative stuff, but again I’m really glad you had a good time!

    • AHHH I’m so glad it wasn’t too long! That’s why I make my posts chatty, so that they’re not boring! And ahhh breaking glass is NOT fun!
      Yeah, I had a great time and I’m so happy! Thank you!

  8. You sound absolutely stunning. Like I’ve seen the photo of the dress, and I can’t even how gorgeous you would have been wearing it!
    It sounds like you had an amazing timeeeeee yaaay πŸ™‚ xx

  9. sounds like an awesome night πŸ™‚ glad you had fun and enjoyed it, i loved reading about it.

  10. Sounds like an amazing night, I’m so glad you had fun. Loved just being able to read about your life and really being able to get a feel about how it was and your emotions. You have a beautiful writing style which really just helps me be able to imagine and feel what it was like πŸ™‚

    • Now THAT makes me happy πŸ™‚ I want people to imagine how I felt, and get that out through my words. I really enjoyed that night πŸ™‚ So happy that you liked reading about it!

  11. Glad you enjoyed your prom! It sounded like you looked lovely and had an amazing time. I had my Year 13 leavers yesterday too so it was nice reading about your leaving experience and prom too. x

    • Aww yay! πŸ™‚ How’d your leavers go? I had such a good time at mine; it feels weird going to the sixth form!

      • Hehe and it was good thank you! Had a lovely meal and a few drinks and was nice to have a day with everyone before we go our separate ways to uni! I bet it does, what subjects are you going to study?x

      • That’s lovely! I’m doing English lit, psychology, history and French – which ones did you do? X

      • Thanks and oo they sound challenging!! I did Maths, Further Maths, Chemistry and History so looks like we have a common interest there.. wooo!! In fact that’s what I am going to study at degree level! x

  12. Sounds absolutely lovely Elm! Haha, I know how you feel about the whole ‘feeling all different’ after being all made up, lol it’s how I feel whenever I do my makeup all nice xD Also, I honestly don’t think I’d be able to get my makeup done bECAUSE I’D FEEL SO AWKWARD LIKE SOMEONE SO CLOSE TO MY FACE AND EURGH XP

    • I can understand that! I felt a bit weird and was like AHHHHAAAAHH you are close to my face HELP!!! But ohh I love feeling so… Elegant? Is that the right word! I had such a good time!

  13. Awww yes! That sounds so amazing!

    We don’t have prom at our school, but it sounds like so much fun! The Prom posts make you look so happy and little. You could forget everything and just go out and be happy with your friends and errgh. That was an awesome idea.

    Who invented it? I need to congratulate them!

    (Also Good thing you weren’t at the after party!)

    • Hahaha EXACTLY, wouldn’t want to get involved with the police! And yeah, it was so so amazing. I felt happy and free and great!
      I’m so glad you enjoyed reading πŸ™‚

  14. This is just sooo good. You have amazing writing skills. I mean, it’s easy to write a diary but to write it like this? Damn girl πŸ˜€
    I’m glad you enjoyed your prom. I’m sure that guy Sycamore would really fall for you instantly if he saw you then πŸ˜‰

    • I hope so. Ahhh I enjoyed myself so much! I’m SO happy that you liked reading it! πŸ™‚ I tried to make it as “entertaining” as I could πŸ™‚

  15. Thank you for sharing your evening with us, Elm! It sounds like you had a wonderful time at your prom! πŸ˜€ I am so happy because you deserve it! What you realized is absolutely beautiful. Friends are there for you, no matter what!

    • I’m so glad that I could come to that realisation! I honestly love my friends so much πŸ™‚ I’m happy that you liked reading it; I just wanted to share my night with everyone because it was magical for me and made me feel happier than I could have ever thought

  16. I love this post (and your whole blog!) I didn’t care that it was a long post because it was so lovely to read about your prom and know that you were happy there because that’s the most important thing πŸ™‚

    • Aww thank you, you just made me smile! πŸ™‚ Yeah, I wanted people to get a sense of how happy I was, and how much the night itself meant to me. It’s great that you can pick that up!
      Also, I love your blog so much too!

      • Awww, I’m glad! I really did pick it up- your post was so lovely to read πŸ™‚ Thank you soo much!!

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