At the risk of sounding bitter, I have started studying for hell – err shit, I meant A-Levels. Oh Elm, cutting right to the point WOW!
For those of you who don’t know, A-Levels are exams that people in the UK take when they’re 18. They sit them after two years of study, in 3 or 4 subjects of their choice, and they’re rather… Difficult. It’s more of a focused study, and you’re encouraged to look outside what you learn in the classroom.
Because of our beautiful, faultless education system (why would you think I was being sarcastic?), they are now even more difficult. They’ve fucked up the GCSEs: when I did them they were ‘easier’, and then they made the A-Levels for my year harder. That means that the jump from GCSE to A-Level is like trying to jump from the bottom of a cliff to the top. A tall cliff.
Honestly, I could rant about how angry I am for days, but it’s better that I don’t. Deal with a bad situation, all of that; anyway, compared to other countries around the world, our education is amazing. I’m LUCKY to be able to go to school.
Still, for the next two years, I have to work. I have to work even more than I did at GCSEs, and you know how much I worked then (nearly into the ground). To prevent too many breakdowns, I’ve compiled a list of what I want to do to help myself… Cope.
Actually do homework the day it’s due
I said this at GCSE, and failed so miserably that I may as well have not said it at all. Doing homework on the set date will free me up for other things, make me less stressed (isn’t that what all of this is about?) and I can manage my workload. YAY.
Give myself an hour a day to look over what I learnt
If I do that, it’ll make 6-7 hours a week, depending on how I’m feeling. If I start now, I can get en board with everything (I’m such a nerd) and I won’t panic so much when I take my AS exams. I’ll panic, but it won’t be as bad. In that one hour per day, I’ll read my class notes, think about anything I got stuck on and do any extra work.
On that note, do extra work outside the lesson
It will ‘advance your learning!’ apparently. Yeah, that’s true, but I hate thinking about it like that because it loses it’s appeal. I love learning, but I’m not very good at unconstrained learning even though I prefer it. Me being me, I’mrubbish at common sense and thinking outside the imaginary box. I’ll read french newspapers, books, listen to french music; research key terms for psychology; read some of the classics for English and research context about the books I’m studying, and also go and totally nerd out on Stuart Britain and unified Germany. Thrilling, right?!
Make work seem exciting
Okay, as I was writing that last paragraph, I lost the will to do anything for a second. It’s so much work and I just… UGH. To stop myself from sobbing, I’ll make it something I want to learn about. Get passionate to the point of strangeness, so that I don’t trawl through endless intthnet pages whilst slowly slipping into a fog of boredom.
I’m sorry, but I’m not giving up this blog. Even if I have to cut down on reading blogs, I’ll still post and talk to new people. I will STILL keep up with blogging friends and talk to you guys; I’m not becoming a recluse and shutting myself off. There are a lot of people who, because of A-Levels, have had to stop blogging and I can’t be one of them: it might be stupid, and if my studies take a tumble I’ll take a break. Blogging’s the one thing that keeps me sane and happy sometimes, and if I took that away from myself, I don’t know how I’d cope. I’ve got roots here and I’m planning to stick by them, whilst crying at the awful pun I just made.
Actually do something to relax
This is a huge one. If I go on a walk, it’ll calm me down. I think I’ll take up exercising – rock climbing again maybe – because it will give me a break from learning and will clear my mind. Meditation doesn’t especially work for me, but there are otherways to relax, and if I don’t I’ll be in the same situation as GCSE. That is to say, I’ll work so hard that I have many crying episodes.
Do some type of volunteering or get a part-time job
Yes, I’ve already got enough going on. But Unis like that sort as thing, I can show the school I’m capable of doing things, but most of all it’s for me. I want to do something good, to help people, and also earn money if I can. I want to take control of my finances and LEARN how to be sensible, whilst doing something that will benefit other people like volunteering for charity.
It may seem as if I’m piling so, so much onto my brain, but I think this will work for me. As well as all of it, I’ll hang out with my friends, go to parties, meet internet friends if I can, laugh, and fix all the shit that I feel guilty about. I won’t let A-Levels drag me down.
People have told me that if I start working now, it’ll pay off. I’m taking their advice, mixing it with yours, and I’m just trying to live my life and be happy. I don’t want to hurt anyone by doing so.
What are you going to do to manage your life at the moment? If you’re doing GCSEs, A-Levels or ANY other exam, try not to stress too much. Do things a little at a time, and you’ll be fine.
From Elm 🙂