BONJOUR!
That’s not the only word je peux parler en Fran¢ais, and because of that, I’ve been told I can LITERALLY speak French. Um, there’s a slight problem with that… Whenever I try to speak, I can’t string sentences together.
Tomorrow, I’m travelling to Paris with a bunch of other blind people, including the fabulous L, S (my ex-boyfriend), Violet (another great friend of mine) and girl who S now likes. We’ll be back on Friday, but I doubt I’ll be able to post much in that time, because I’ll be busy wandering the streets of Paris, trying to laugh, and most likely singing High School Musical songs at the top of my lungs with L. It’s happened every time we’ve seen each other before, and has turned into a kind of tradition.
Last time I went to Paris was about ten years ago, and so I don’t remember it much. However, I have beautiful memories of France in general – having the best time of my life with Robin, lying by the pool, feeling like a teenager. I’m hoping that in Paris this time, I’ll get that same experience, because I really really need it now.
If you read my post on Saturday you’ll know that I’m not exactly the happiest person at the moment. That still applies, and though having S here has helped, I’m still really not 100 percent. We’ve talked everything out, I’ve cried about 20 buckets of water and we’ve been entirely honest with each other, but again, the feelings of sadness still remain. They won’t be going away for a while, and especially because I’ll have to see those two together, in Paris it’ll be amplified.
However, that’s why I’m going to try and enjoy myself. With the help of L and Violet, S Club 7 songs and more honesty with S, I should be able to get through it. I’m hopefully not going to be crying too much, and if I do, I’ve agreed to find someone so I don’t have to do it alone. That’s the advantage of having someone you can truly talk things over with around you, and I appreciate it more than I can say. I’ve always found it difficult to put myself first, in any situation, but I suppose that now’s the time to try.
My mind’s a bit of a blur, to be honest. I’ll go from being slightly okay to being so not okay that I feel blank inside, eyes staring into nothing. When I get back from Paris, I’ll definitely write a post explaining how I’m feeling: the good, the bad and the confused; there will most likely be a lot of that.
Je te parlerai le Samedi – YES I know that’s most likely incorrect; I can’t bloody speak French! If people make me try and speak, my voice will sound about three octaves higher and four times faster as I try and garble out words that don’t even make sense. Uuugh, how am I supposed to do this?
I haven’t been able to read your posts recently either; things have been hectic, both literally and in my mind. How have you been? If you’re going anywhere this half term or this holiday, then let me know.
Seeing certain people will be tricky, but I’m looking forward to Paris. It’ll give me a chance to get away, and to start to heal a little from how bad I feel. This could either set me back or push me forward, and I’m hoping – I’m trying – for it to be the latter.
From Elm 🙂
Just Call Me Elm or Something 
I am terrible at speaking French, you’d think I could at least have a simple conversation after 6 years of classes. Have fun in Paris! (I wanted to write that in French but I couldn’t even come up with the word fun.. Joyeux? No that’s an adjective…)
Hehe I LOVED that comment! I did have mostly a good time, yep! 🙂 And it’s… UGH I don’t know how to say it either!
*cheats and goes to google translate* Avoir du plaisir à Paris 😉 (a bit too late though…)
Who cares – it’s still French!
All the best Elm. I hope everything goes better than you expect it to.💕💕☺
Thanks so much! It both did and didn’t 🙂 I got some enjoyment out of it, though!
have fun in France! 🙂
Oooooh France! You’ve got this, become a classy French woman and have an aweeesome time! 😀
I did my very very best! No classy French woman though 😦 merciii!
I hope you have a wonderful time in Paris, and make great memories with your friends ❤
I very much did – not all of it was good but a significant portion of it was! Thank you so much 🙂
You’re welcome, and I’m glad to hear that the majority of your trip was enjoyable!
Take care!
Hopefully the visit turns out to help you heal❤
I’m not sure if it did, but it at least put some temporary bandages on 🙂 thank you!
Temporary bandages are the worst really, but regardless, time should do it. You’re welcome ❤
I have the same problem with French, all of my friends who have visited France say that it goes away with the first few days.
I actually managed to speak French and I’m really surprised! 😃
That’s awesome 😀 I should try to practice my French somewhere irl…
Go for it! I’m going to try as well
yayyy i’m so glad you’re feeling better! have all of the fun in france 🙂
Yeah, it was partly great and partly not! But I hold onto the great part 🙂 thank you
all the best! I’m going to Quebec and I can’t string sentences together o save my life! It’s gonna be a rough one! -Lyss
I know the feeling – how was it? Mine was… Eventful, I suppose you could say
Haha I’m going to next week but I hope it’ll be awesome!! -Lyss
Oh my god have fun in Paris!! I definitely want to go there one day but for now I’m just going to live vicariously through you haha. Make sure you get lots of pictures and write a post about your trip. I look forward to it!!
Xxx
Thanks so much! I’ve written the happy post about the trip 🙂 how was your half term been, anyway? Xxx
Well, I live in Australia so we don’t have half terms. I wish I did though haha. But I came back from a holiday a couple of weeks ago and that was good. We went to the beach and I did some stuff with friends. What about you?
I keep on forgetting you live in Australia! And ooh exciting 😀 When I got back from Paris I just relaxed, really, or tried to!
Haha yep I’m down under. Well I hope you overcame the jetlag quickly and got lots of rest!
Yep, I did my best!
Tell me why when I read the first sentence I actually read it as “Bonjour! That’s not the only word I speak in French.” hahaha instead of realizing it was all french
I love that! When I was writing it, I just slipped into French 🙂
It’s sad to hear that you’ve broken up with S but Paris will make you feel so much better, I’m sure of it 🙂
It’s partly did, and partly really didn’t, but I’m just holding on to the good bits 🙂 thank you so much for your support, it means a lot!
No problemo, always here to speak to! 🙂 x
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Hi that’s awesome, thanks!
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intéressant je parle français aussi je pense que je suis très très mal mais j’écoute rock dans français j’adore musique de France parce que c’est très belle et dans mon avis c’est très meaningful. (Lol lost on how to say that)
Oui, tu peux le parler! Moi aussi, j’écoute la musique francais! beC’est fantastique, mais je ne la comprends pas!
Sameeeelol