Chances are, if the title of this made your heart speed up and made you feel a bit ill, you’re getting AS or A-Level results tomorrow. That is if you live in England, Wales and Northern Ireland – Scotland got their Highers results beforehand, I think. If you’re not nervous for Results Day tomorrow, I applaud you; can I borrow some of that courage please?
I’m getting AS Results tomorrow. Although that’s scary, they only impact my predicted grades if I really fuck up – for me, it’s nothing compared to what my friends in the year above are getting. They’re getting results that will determine their uni placement if it’s conditional. Yes, it’s scary – more scary than I can imagine because I haven’t gone through it – but I want to try and offer some words of comfort. They might not help but in this situation, I want to try because it’ll be me going through this next year.
At the time of writing this, it’s almost 10 o’clock. We’ll be getting our results around 8-9 o’clock, depending on your school and what procedures they have. You’re probably stressed and so I’d suggest you get an early night. I know that’s rich of me to say because when you’re nervous you can’t sleep but even resting your body will help. Have a bath, shower or just do nothing for 10 minutes – no phone or social media. Nake time for yourself. That means that you can wake up tomorrow feeling a little refreshed and not so panicky. Easier said than done but it won’t do you any harm to try.
You’ve heard the phrase “You’ll be fine!” about a thousand times already and it’s probably getting on your last nerve. It’s reassuring and supportive but it won’t help you because in your mind, something could go wrong. I won’t say that to you. What I will say is that whatever happens, you will be able to move forward.
If you’re doing AS Levels, the majority of them don’t count towards your A-Levels. Whether they do or don’t, you still have another year to improve. It’s going to be upsetting for you if you don’t do as well as you wanted – I understand that – but it’s not the end of the road. That’s the same if you’ ve done A-Levels. You have your first choice and your insurance choice; there’s also UCAS Clearing. There are so many options to consider – and whatever you do, you’ll do it well because you tried so hard in those exams. You know what it is to try your best and you should be so fucking proud of yourself. Never sell yourself short. You deserve so much more than that.
Whether you got an A, B, C or any other letter, you are still an amazing person with a complex, beautiful mind. You’ve still got hopes and ambitions, whatever is written on that piece of paper. LETTERS DO NOT DEFINE YOU. I will say that so many times until you believe me because your worth is not based on how many words you can write in 3 hours or how this or that character is presented.
People tell you that these exams and results make your life. That’s bullshit. What makes your life is your drive and determination to keep going, to push forward and to not give up. What makes your life is your personality that you show to people. It’s about meeting your own expectations, not the expectations of others and if you don’t, it’s about showing yourself that you will never be a failure.
It’s okay to be scared. Just remember that fear doesn’t rule you. This year has been tough for a lot of us, with new specifications, exams and subject difficulty but we did it. If we managed this, we can do bloody anything.
I’m going to bed soon so that I can prepare myself for tomorrow. If any of you need me, I’m here – I may not understand what you’re going through exactly but I’ll still always listen.
From Elm 🙂