Guest Post – A Sense of Self, Part 2

I was going to come up with an original title, but I loved this person’s title, so just go with it.

I’ve got a guest post for ya today, from the author of Welcome To… Pet. Go check out their blog – their About page is fantastic, can I just say.

So, we collaborated on the senses – saying what our favourite things were. It WASN’T my idea, so kudos goes to Pet. You can find my responses right over here, but enough of self-promotion. These are Pet’s beautiful responses.

What is your favourite thing to…
1. Feel?
Soft hoodies. Any clothes that are extremely soft, I’m down.

2. Taste?
A thai dish called Khao Soy. It’s a savory orange curry with chicken and egg noodles. I’m obsessed with that stuff.

3. Smell?
When something (it can be anything. Chicken, cake, lasagne) is baking in an oven.

4. Hear?
People laughing, including myself. When someone is just laughing loudly and freely just because they’re happy, it’s the best thing in the world to hear.

5. Has anything bordering on supernatural ever happened to you?
Well, yes. When I was fourteen, I was coming out of a deep depression. I’d only been better for a while, when at night I began having terrible nightmares, so bad I would wake up tangled in the sheets and absolutely frozen, unable to go back to sleep. I had dreams of blue and black demons, and once that I was falling into Hell. It got so bad that I began to dread when nighttime came and I’d have to sleep.
One night I had a dream that I was taking a shower, than this black bug-like demon appeared and was just staring at me. I began to get scared, of course. I guess now I should mention that I’m Christian, and I believe I have power over dark forces (I’d totally beat Darth Vader, mwahaha). So I commanded this evil thing to leave, and then I suddenly heard a loud thunderclap, and the creature vanished. Then there was this really bright light, and I woke up.
Now fastforward to a few nights later. I was still having nightmares, and getting desperate because I couldn’t even sleep. I asked my older sister to pray for me. She commanded my nightmares to leave. Then, would you believe it, right at that moment there was a loud thunderclap outside and I felt chills go up and down my body. Then it felt like a really heavy burden had been lifted off my chest. I didn’t have any more nightmares after that.

So, there you have it! Even though I’m not Christian, I was really fascinated by that last response – and I loved all the rest.

From Elm 🙂

What the hell do I believe in?

Heya – it’s Elm here 🙂

Sorry about earlier. Raven and I were just freaked out as hell.

So, we still don’t know if we believe if reincarnation, or whatever this is, exists. We had a chat about whether it could be a loop of time that broke, somehow, but that created even more confusion.

To be honest, my philosophy is this:

We’ve only got one life that we remember, unless we somehow remember a past life that COULD possibly exist. Why some people remember it and others don’t, I have no idea; does that mean it only exists for SOME people and not others? That wouldn’t make sense. None of it does.

But we have only one life to live RIGHT NOW. It’s no use dwelling on whatever the hell past lives we might have had or future lives. Right now, I’m already too concerned with this one.

If reincarnation DOES exist, then what about the other religions? I don’t think I could believe that what you have in one life would determine what you get in the next – you know, as in Karma.

In fact, I have no idea what I believe just now. I don’t think I’ll ever believe in a god, or gods: I just couldn’t. I AM an Atheist, which means I do not believe in the presence of gods.

But can an Atheist believe in reincarnation? How would it work? I don’t bloody know. I honestly think I won’t believe in this, but that doesn’t mean that I have to close off my options.

There’s so much damn stuff in the world we don’t know about. I’m the type of person to be a cynic: I believe in the scientific approach. I often hate talking about this because I refuse to insult people’s religions.

I have no religion. I won’t follow rules set out in a book or scripture. I’m a bloody human and make of that what you will: I don’t want to follow something. I believe what I believe, but a documentary can’t change it.

What can change it? I suppose I can. There’s nothing divine about this: people still believe in magic. Some people still believe in the Greek or Roman gods. There’s nothing wrong with that.

Whatever the hell I end up believing in, it’s my beliefs. I know they’re mine, but I label myself an Atheist for the simple fact that evolution is what I believe in.

Reincarnation doesn’t have to oppose that. I don’t believe there is “life after death”. You die, you die. But if you DO believe in a Heaven, that’s perfectly fine. It’s what YOU believe and hell knows I have no right to judge.

What do you think? What do YOU believe in?

My beliefs are screwed up right now. Like I said, I don’t believe in any gods. That doesn’t mean that I have to believe in anything. If I believe in reincarnation, it neither makes me a Hindu nor a Buddhist, even though I have respect for those religions.

It makes me me.

I’m sorry – I’ve confused myself. I guess I’m just confused as hell right now, and I know Raven is too. When you think about it, it’s terrifying; we went round in a circle trying to talk about it.

I hope you don’t mind my ramblings. It’s difficult to describe my beliefs, such as why I believe there’s no god and I don’t believe we’re put here for a higher purpose.

If I’ve offended you, I’m sorry. I’m just putting my beliefs out there, frankly, to… Express myself, I think. Your beliefs are just as valid, if not more, than mine, because you might KNOW what you believe in.

Ugh. What the hell? I hate questioning things. It makes my head hurt. I suppose it’s more simple to just go, “EH, no God!” or “Yeah, there are Gods out there.” It’s EASIER, but I want to question things. Maybe some things exist, and others don’t; I’ve probably got it all wrong.

Thank you so much for reading. God, this post was originally just supposed to be a short one, but it’s made me think about MYSELF.

And Raven, I hope you like this. Now I can FINALLY refer to you here because I was so stuck for a name!

From Elm 🙂

PS: My first writing piece should be up either today or tomorrow on my writing blog. As to what it is, I don’t know yet.