Tumblr and New Friends and Guest Posts

(The links aren’t working FML *breathes*)

So hyper right now that I could jump 10 feet into the air. I don’t even know.

SO, scouring the teen tag really DOES pay off. I’m a twat and haven’t read blogs in ages, WHICH IS TERRIBLE (shut up Elm). But y’know what, I found this bloody awesome guy and it’s just made my entire life. SERIOUSLY, making new blogging friends is so fantastic. I have to thank ateenagediaryonline for nominating me for an award – she’s ALSO awesome.

So yeah, THAT happened. Right! Self-promotion time (I’m so bad).

You know how yesterday, I asked you guys if you wanted to guest post? WELL, I made my own guest post sage because I’m arrogant… Err… Yah. If you DO wanna guest post, then just email the Elm and we’ll sort something. Phew.

EEK. Here we go – i’ve ALWAYS been a wordpress girl. Never a Tumblr one. But SCREW THIS, I’ll give it a go. I love WP, always will – it’s my home – but let’s go onto Tumblr and take the piss out of it! And me! And everything!

Still hyper. Goddamnit. But BAH I feel happy as anything.

From Elm πŸ™‚

I’ve Done It Again!

Alright, so is it possible to get REALLY STRONG FEELINGS FOR SOMEONE YOU MET ABOUT A WEEK AGO ON THE INTERNET?!

*claps* Oh, Elm, well done! You’ve done it again! Sigh.

… Let me explain, and explain many things. I’m a moron, so I haven’t been posting or reading blogs, and I have NO EXCUSE except these fucked-up feelings have sent me on a whirlwind. I’ll be honest with you guys; you deserve it, but I think you might judge me for this. OKAY, who am I kidding? You didn’t judge me when this happened the last time, but last time, I went OUT WITH THE GUY and he dumped me after 2 weeks. Okay, no negativity.

Breathe, Elm, breathe. I’ve missed using that name, actually. ARGH! Alright, here we go.

There is this app. On this app, you can set up a profile, put your location in, and talk to people around your area of the same age. I KNOW, GUYS! Risky, dangerous, weird, stalkerish, and did I mention dangerous? And weird? And risky?

I think I started using it regularly a little over a week ago, and in that time I made a good friend (the most sarcastic and amazing person you’ll ever meet), had run-ins with complete creeps which I blocked, and have talked to a lot of people I don’t like. But then again, I ALSO met… Hey, let’s call him Aspen. It’s a tree.

How the hell do I describe Aspen without you wondering how on earth I got feelings for him so quickly?

The first time Aspen and I talked, we didn’t talk much. It was your casual “Hey!” “Hi.” “How’re you?” “I’m good, you?” “Yeah, good!” conversation. But then, somehow, it developed into more interesting conversations: religion, astronomy, space, philosophy, Feminism, happiness – I don’t even know how we ended up progressing into one topic from another.

We’ve skyped, for hours at a time. I wasn’t willing to admit my feelings for him until we did. But you know what? Skyping him is as good, if not better, than talking to him via a message. Our conversations flow, and he’s my age – and he sounds it. That, I’m not worried about.

Three days ago, he trusted me with something. It’s VERY similar to the Ash situation – not the thing he trusted me with, but the exchange of personal things. And like with Ash, I will NEVER tell anyone. I was terrified, then, that I’d have feelings for him like I did Ash.

But with Aspen, the possibility of meeting up is SO close, because we don’t live far away from each other. YES, I know it’s dangerous. Let me explain.

Next Saturday, he’s having a birthday celebration at our local theme park with a few of his friends. And he invited me along – this was the day before yesterday – not thinking I’d say yes; it was a COMPLETE long shot. Except I did say yes. I have to say now that the messages we’ve exchanged are nice ones – not your average conversation; every time we speak we speak for ages about any topic, really.

“Skype conversations are good and all, but-”

“They’re not the same. I know what you mean, but hey, once we meet it won’t just be an internet thing any more.”

“Yeah, true that, and I really really want to go.”

“Just because I’m with my friends, and just because it’s my birthday, doesn’t mean you can’t tell me if something makes you uncomfortable. Okay? You can always voice your opinion.”

“Yeah, I know, and thanks.”

That’s how some of our conversations go.

I have a huge problem. Odd was going to come, but because of personal reasons, they can’t make it. Wren’s in Birmingham, Raven’s in Paris, Willow’s out with her friends and I have no one else I can go with – except Red, but he’s going to the same theme park for his drama group.

I want to go. I’ve spoken to one of his other friends, who’s ALSO on the app – we spoke independently of knowing it and then Aspen told me they were friends (I know they actually are because his friend was arranging to come round to his house yesterday).

The point is, I really want to go, because I want to feel happy. I’m going to try and ignore these stupid fucking feelings and think of him as a friend, because that’s the only thing I can do. But he’s the type of guy I could fall in love with. He’s the type of person I could have seriously strong feelings for, and it’s scaring me.

You’re probably thinking, “WHY? Why has she got feelings for him when they haven’t known each other for long? He could be a perverted, creepy bastard!” I know. I know. But I want to take the chance for once, because I want to be happy and not feel like everything I do when it comes to love is useless and stupid and POINTLESS. I want to feel normal, as awful as that is. Fact is, I’m blind (he knows this) and so I can’t go there on my own – I WOULDN’T, anyway, even if I could see.

I think I might tell my dad. My dad was okay with my relationship or friendship with Palm – my previous boyfriend – but I don’t know if he’ll be okay with Aspen. I just don’t want to have to feel like I’m a freak because I have to get people to help me.

I lied to him, though. I said I was meeting Red at the theme park, which isn’t TECHNICALLY a lie, and now I feel so horrifically guilty.

Thanks for reading. I promise I’ll read some of your guys’ blogs soon; I owe it to you.

From Elm πŸ™‚

Teens Tell Their Story – Week 3 – YouTube

Heh. So I signed up for the TTTS Project, run by Caitlin and Sherina. I didn’t do weeks 1 or 2 because I was in France, and then exhausted FROM being in France.

But it’s week 3 and, thank God, I’m taking part!

This week’s topic is YouTube.

You’ve got many people who are massive YouTube addicts. I’m not one of them.

However, I know WHY people love it. It brings people together. It lets them watch people make amazing videos (because those videos are amazing) and for people to do what they love and post it. It truly is a wonderful site.

I love YouTubers: Dan Is Not On Fire, Amazing Phil, Joe Sugg, Boyinaband, Emma Blackery – but I don’t fangirl over them. I would NEVER write fanfiction about them. I don’t rave about their videos, though I love them.

I’m the type of person who will find a video on Youtube, laugh until they cry, then stalk the comments and laugh some more.

Some comments are awful. REALLY horrible, like on music videos and on controversial videos. It’s awful, but it’s what people should expect – as sad as that is.

In conclusion: Youtube is wonderful, and I love it. If any of you have a Youtube channel, I will DEFINITELY support you. Then again, I’m not a teen who obsesses over YouTubers: that’s what some of my friends do.

Sorry, this isn’t a very interesting post! 😦

Check out Caitlin and Sherina’s blogs, because they are wonderful.

From Elm πŸ™‚

Casually Freaking out (in a good way)

I feel so sick because I just spent 1 and a half hours in the car. If you can’t guess, I’m back in England. Not sure if that’s a good or bad thing – I’ll blog about it later.

But when I was in the car, I READ AN AMAZING POST by my wonderful friend Tiegan. You can read it here.

On Wednesday I went a bit crazy and had MANY skype conversations. The first one was with Tiegan AND IT WAS AMAZING. Her accent is fab πŸ˜€ And I spoke to Nikki and Haley as well.

But Tiegan’s reaction has made my day, week, month – it made me so happy. I NEVER realised people COULD fangirl over me! I’m just Elm, y’know? Just Elm… Hah… Okay that’s NOT funny.

I LOVE Skyping bloggers. It’s so so fun and it’s so nice to have a voice to the words (because I can’t see faces).

Most of the conversation with Tiegan just descended into madness; I’m SO glad I talked to her. We have a Kik group chat with a few bloggers and that’s how the whole WHO-WANTS-TO-SKYPE conversation kicked (HA) off.

If I’ve talked to you before and you DO have Skype (and of course if you’re comfortable giving it) then just email me, because putting your Skype in comments that are PUBLIC is a very stupid idea πŸ˜›

EEEEEEE this whole thing is just making me so happy! I LOVE you guys! ARGH!

From Elm πŸ™‚

MEET THE FEMINISTAS!

GUYS!

You know that awesome exciting fantastic announcement I was talking about yesterday? WELL here it is!

11 amazing bloggers (I AM A NARCISSIST) have started a new blog.

About Feminism – and issues like racism, sexism and inequality.

It’s going to be amazing, because 11 minds are going to be working on this. It’s a place where ANYONE – from any gender, race or sexuality or background – can come together and feel wanted and read about what WE think is important. Because WE have opinions, despite what society might say.

Our blog is here. Following us would mean the world.

Guys, thanks SO much for coming up with this idea. I came back to that chat on Twitter and I found about 100 messages waiting for me. The excitement was overwhelming. It’s just bloody amazing to be part of something that you love.

OH MY GOD! I’M SO EXCITED DAMNIT! πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚

I hope you guys like the blog, and what we write. We want to make a difference and we want to help people.

From Elm πŸ™‚

“Well, at least you haven’t given birth to a demon baby called Renesmee!”

I just finished a Skype conversation with the lovely, amazing and downright un-plankish Hannah.- and if you haven’t followed her already, do that because she is fantastic.

That conversation was over an hour long – and can I just say, I’ve only really been PROPERLY talking to her for a few weeks.

It’s amazing how many friends you can make, and in so many different places. I’ve never really spoken with such ease to anyone before, or switched between serious and hilarious topics so seamlessly.

By the end of it, I was nearly sobbing with laughter. You know those people who you just feel like you’ve known for ages? Yep – she’s one of them, along with a few other bloggers.

Topics that we discussed were:
Sheep
How posh I was
Game of Thrones
Comparing my love life to Twilight (OI!)
Crying over the fact that she is on first name basis with Sainsbury’s employees
Game of Thrones AGAIN

We both thought it would be awkward. We thought we’d be saying things like, “Er, what’s your… Favourite colour?” “That’s a nice wall you’ve got there!”

We were wrong. It was actually really surprising – but a GOOD surprising.

Don’t underestimate your Internet friends. They’re just as important as your real life friends, and they’re always going to be there.for you.

ALSO – I have a REALLY REALLY exciting announcement to make tomorrow! πŸ™‚ Some of you may have already heard, but I’ll shut up before I give away too much!

Thank you, Hannah πŸ™‚

From Elm

My Brand New, Amazing, Fantastic, Spiffing Contact Page!Β 

I should seriously stop self-promoting… It’s horrifying. I’M SORRY!

Okay! So I have a brand new page on my little blogikins – *vomits* – I just wrote that. Did I? Did I actually just…

It’s a contact page! So, it has my email on it, and my kik, for those of you who want to contact me privately.

That sounds… Like an innuendo. It’s not. Seriously, though, if you just want to chat, need advice or feel like contacting me, then you can whenever you want πŸ™‚

Enough of my rambling – here’s the page!

If you do contact me, then just let me know who you are. Obviously, safety is a top priority, and there’s going to be some instances where people might not tell the truth, but that’s what comes with the internet.

Thanks, guys! πŸ™‚
From Elm