1500 Has the Same Effect as 15

OH MY GOD!

I came home from a pretty horrendous shopping trip (mainly because it was boring, but my mum and I had dinner afterwards so that was great) to discover that for some unknown reason, my little train wreck of a blog has hit 1500 followers.

Like what?? Can I first of all just say, thank you SO MUCH, I can’t even eloquence today so I’m a little speechless.

I know I’ve said this in every single follower milestone I’ve reached – 50, 200, 500 and 1000 – that I love you so much, but the same still applies here. That hasn’t, and WON’T, change because you make my day all the time. Throughout my blog, you’ve supported me, read my terrible posts where I’ve been in tears, insanely happy (or both) and where I’ve spilled my life onto a screen. Do you have any idea how happy I am, how grateful I am that you’ve stuck by me? Whether you’ve been here a day or since the start, you’ve taken in my words in some form.

Whenever I want to feel like I’m not alone, I come here. I read your blogs, your comments; I write to get things out when there’s nothing else I can do. Perhaps it seems strange to be writing this all at 1500, but why not say it now? It honestly astounds me that 1500 people clicked the follow button; yes, most aren’t active followers, but the ones that are count so much. Every single one of you counts, no matter your background, history, hopes or dreams. The blogosphere isn’t a place where people say, “You’re not allowed.”

What I mostly want to say is that when I got 50 followers, I was just as ecstatic. To me, it doesn’t matter the follower count – whenever I reach a milestone, I feel just as happy. It shows me that I’ve got somewhere. The only time it’s ever had more of an impact was when I reached 1000, because something about that number held more significance. Why? I don’t know; I think it was because I reached 4 figures.

My blog’s not the biggest out there at ALL, but it’s my home. If I can inspire, or more importantly HELP, someone in the course of my writing, then it’s worth it to me. I blog because I want to, but mainly because of the community – AKA you guys.

If there’s anything I can do to improve, please tell me. Though I’m a total rebel and don’t conform to any stereotypes HAHAHA no, if there’s a particular post you like to read, just let me know. Your voices matter, and my blog’s not just for me in my eyes. It’s for everyone that stumbles across it.

Thanks for being so positive all of the time. Thanks for coming to me for advice, to ask questions and to just generally express your opinion. Through this blog, I’ve grown as a person. Before I started, I had no set objective or theme because I didn’t want to disappoint or pressure myself, but now I know what I want to do. I want to be confident, happy, and continue this blog.

For fear of boring you, I’m going to stop writing now. Again, tell me any improvements I want to make; I genuinely want to know. Over the next few months, there might be a lot of changes to this, depending on what people say and how I feel.

Sorry; it just hit me that I’ve reached 1500. ME. ELM. The strange nobody who’s prone to randomly calling people amazing and writing embarrassing stories, or supposedly “inspirational” shit.

Thanks again. I won’t say that I hope I’ll reach a certain number of followers in a certain amount of time. All I’m happy with is now, and all of you being here, and the chaotic place I’ve somehow created.

You’re brilliant. Don’t forget it, and I’m always here. I say that from the bottom of my heart (I mean the heart DOES have a bottom, but it’s pretty much the same as the rest of it, filled with blood and valves and tissues ew that’s disgusting I’m just going to forget I said that).

From Elm πŸ™‚

I DID IT I DID IT HOLY CRAP

Guys. I am crying. Well I WAS and I want to now.

I

FUCKING

HIT

1000

HOW DO I LIFE ANY MORE?!

Thank you, thank you, thank you so much. How did this happen? I literally thought I would never reach this, like this was a mythical number – 500 was enough for me. 100 was enough.

For 1000 people – ONE THOUSAND – to click that follow button? I am speechless. ME. You follow ME. ELM. The nobody. The blogger who has no idea what she’s doing.

You are fantastic and I love you so much. You’ve got no idea how much this means to me, how much I want to run around the house screaming. I’m in shock, because 10 months ago I started this journey and I swear to god, everything that’s happened since then has shaped me.

You’ve gone on that journey with me. Through my shitty posts, amazing highs, and just LIFE, no matter when you started following me. You’ve seen a piece of my world and stepped foot in it, just for a second – or MORE – and that’s making me so happy that I can barely speak.

Through this, I’ve got to know so many amazing people. I’ve read your posts, which make me laugh and smile and want to give you hugs; I’ve talked with you and shared memories with you and though we’re on the internet, it’s as real as if I were standing in front of you.

This world’s a family and I’m part of it, YOU’RE part of it, WE’RE part of it. You’ve been there for me and I can’t thank you enough. I’ll always be saying it, because though this might not seem much, it is to me. Your support is what’s keeping me going.

I’ve got a blog, but damned if I’m not supporting you guys ALL THE WAY. It’s what I’m here for, why I continue, and it’s what I live for on some days. You’re not just that person who writes a post – some of you are my good friends, and I admire every single one of you.

I’m not trying to be arrogant. All I’m trying to do is tell you what an effect you’ve had on me, and the world. You meet people from across the globe here, and we’re all connected, and it’s beautiful.

Thank you for 1000. Thanks for just being here. Thanks for helping me, always, and seeing me through some of the most stupid things I’ve ever done.

BLOGGOSPHERIANS TOGETHER, FOREVER.

From Elm πŸ™‚

2015 Blogger Awards: Casually Crying Here

Yeah, so I cried earlier out of happiness because of the blog awards winners announcement, which can be found here.

I just…. I DON’T… FOUR AWARDS?! Guys, I can’t BELIEVE this.

Me. Winning AWARDS. FOUR. Blogger of the year – WHY?! I’M JUST ME! I thought I might win one but FOUR?!

I don’t even know how to function any more. I never thought this would happen to me – that after 9 months, I would have found so many amazing friends, and that I would have been able to talk freely, without judgement, to people that I trust. You are all amazing. I’m speechless, I just don’t know WHAT possessed you guys to nominate me. Seriously.,I’m in shock.

But anyway, enough of the “OMG I LIKE WON AWARDZ” crap. I need to thank somebody.

I’ve already sent off emails to everyone else that won – if I didn’t, I’ll say it here. You are all amazing and EVERY SINGLE one of you means something to me. Whether you made me laugh, think, or want to give you a huge hug, you’ve all impacted my life. You deserve the awards you got, and quite frankly, all the ones you DIDN’T get, too. I love you so much. I’ll write a bit about each one, just a bit, and you can find the link in Ambie’s (is it with a y or ie? post.

Caitlin: You’re an inspiration to me. Always have been, always will be. The moment you started, I was just in awe of your posts, and you’ve always brought the blogging community together.

Anthony: SERIOUSLY, you are the best thing ever. You make me laugh and feel so happy, and you’re just such a wonderful person. Keep smiling and being amazing and just generally saying hilarious AND thought-provoking things.

Dziey: I am in awe of you, simple as. You exploded onto the blogging world with a bang, getting right into the middle of the community, and THAT is something you should be proud of. Seriously, I flailed around for about 3 or 4 months before I managed to be vaguely okay at blogging. You’re going to go far, I know it, and I will hopefully be around to see it and cheer you on as much as possible. You bloody well deserve it.

Alex: I swear, every time you make a new post, I smile. Whenever I get an email from you, I ALWAYS look forward to what you say. You just make me happy, simple as, and it’s amazing that we’ve got so much in common. I’ve only known you for a short time, but I think you are wonderful.

Keira: Seriously, you’re amazing. You give the best advice, and are just always there for me whenever I need it, ready to put that smile back on my face. I’ve not known you long, but that doesn’t matter; you’ve managed to brighten up my life by just being you.

Em: Oh, what can I say? I’ve said it all before, in the email, but I would never have had got through this year if it weren’t for you. You lift my spirits, make me smile and you’re always here to remind me I’m not alone. It means so much to me. Always keep being you, because you are like no one else I’ve ever known.

The person I want to thank the most is The Ambivert, or Ambie, and I’ve got something to say to you.

There are some people that just bring the blogging world together, or just this side of the blogosphere, and you’re one of them. From this little award, you’ve made people feel so happy, and put smiles on their faces that have lasted for days. You’ve been optimistic, fantastic, and you know what? YOU deserve blogger of the year, I’m telling you now. YOU’RE the one that brought us together in the last days of 2015, and that counts for so much. Thank you, you amazing girl.

No matter if you got nominated or not, if you won or not, you’re ALL wonderful. Even if 2015 went badly for you, look forward with a smile. We all deserve an award, and we’ve all already got it. You’re amazing.

From Elm πŸ™‚

To the People I Admire

This post is dedicated to those of you who take time out of your day to message people, to check if they’re okay.

This post is dedicated to the people who go out of their way to make others feel happy, and to help them get through everything when they feel miserable.

This post is dedicated to the friends and even the random people who don’t know you, who support you and are willing to stand by you no matter what.

This post is dedicated to the blogging community, who have helped me out so much these past months. This post is dedicated to every beautiful post and comment I see, where people truly care.

I’ve never been so proud to be part of this, and I’ve never been so happy to be human. To have friends like everyone I’ve got.

I got inspired to do this by a twitter direct message, from someone I now consider a friend, because they took time out of their day to check if I was alright. That means so much to me, because it shows we care. It shows we look out for each other. So thank you, Selfie. You are one amazing person, and I’m begging you, never stop being you: giving advice, helping people, INSPIRING people.

We’re not alone, and we will get through whatever we have to deal with together. We’re not the types of people to leave ANYONE behind in the dust. Thank you, Em for TRULY helping me realise that.

In fact, thank you to everyone. I’m not going to spout off names, but those two are the ones that inspired me to make this.

And I also want to thank the other people who have stood by each other, and been there. You’re strong, but the main thing you are is kind and wonderful and supportive, and I couldn’t ask for better friends.

I have no words to describe how I feel. This has brightened up my day so much, because originally I was going to post something a bit darker. Now, there’s no use for it, because I’ve realised how amazing we truly can be.

This post might not have come out the way I wanted it to, but the point is there, all the same. I’m proud to know you, the person reading this, whoever you are.

Thank you.

From Elm πŸ™‚

The One Lovely Blog Award

Casually screeching cause I GOT AN AWARD!

So, Aiden, the right ledge that he is, nominated this specimen for the One Lovely Blog Award. So, this specimen doth do that award, kinda, ish.

THE RULES: WOW, dramatic much?
1. Thank the person who nominated you.
2. Add the award logo. (Sneer. How?)
3. List 7 facts about yourself.
4. Nominate people to carry on the award.

Okay, so I have NO idea what to write… HEY, let’s bullshit it!

1. I should be preparing for history coursework, but instead, for the past 3 hours, I’ve been talking to this awesome person on this potentially weird app that’s a LITTLE like Omegle, but better.

2. I have only a vague idea of what I actually look like.

3. When I was younger, I used to have massive tantrums where I’d dive onto the floor, kick my legs and scream the place down.

4. My old tweets and Facebook posts are horrific and cringeworthy – Aiden, was it you that said ages ago that I should post some of them here and do sarcastic commentary? I really should; that’s a great idea.

5. I used to have a huge phobia of sand, where if I stepped onto it, I would cry.

6. I still have a fear to the point of crying of bees, wasps, flies and ANYTHING that buzzes. Don’t even mention the word hornet to me.

7. I genuinely used to pretend I could hear ghosts when I went up to my school gate – this was when I was about 9. WOW, Elm, WOW.

And I nominate:

1. Archana

2. Luna

3. Xanziepan

4. Michelle

5. My Teenage Madness

The Elmobile’s Up and Running Again

Riiight, so some of you who’ve read my previous posts (as in the ones before the summer) know that when something bad happens, I’m a right miserable cow. But then, usually, I bounce back again after everyone gives me support and is so nice.

GUESS What’s JUST HAPPENED?

That’s right, kids; I feel much better. Er. Let me explain.

Thanks, guys, for everything recently. I hope you can get used to my up-and-down posts.

As much as I haven’t seemed TOO upset, recently, this whole weight’s been smashing down on me and I’ve been feeling un-motivated and angry all the time. For now, that weight’s lifted. It will come back, at some point, but I won’t dwell on it.

My good moods often don’t last long, but I don’t honestly care right now. I’m taking this for what it is and enjoying it until the next hurdle comes along. That’s what you Have to do, isn’t it?

I’m probably in a good mood because of the 2 hour skype conversation I had earlier with someone I haven’t seen in over a year, which was wonderful.

I’m still SO stressed about school, and confused about S and everyone – my feelings, and that. Eh, well.

What’s up with you guys?

From Elm πŸ™‚

MY WRITING BLOG IS UP!

OH MY GOD

Okay, calm.

You know that idea I talked about in one of my posts?

I DID IT. I set up the writing blog. AS IN, THE WRITING BLOG EXISTS.

Thank you so much for giving me the motivation to do this. That means the bloody world, because this will help me.

The first post is up now, and you can read it here.

Also, does anyone know how to add links to the menu at the TOP of my site? I tried but it failed miserably. Just trying to add my writing blog link to this site and vice versa.

AAAARRGHHHH I’m so excited for this! Thank you SO MUCH again!

From Elm πŸ™‚

What do you MEAN, You Didn’t Do The Awards?! ELM!

*deep breath*

OMFGIHAVENTDONEANYAWARDSATALLTHATIWASNOMINATEDFORSORRYSORRYSORRYOHGODIFEELSOBADNOW

TRANSLATION:

Oh my fucking god, I haven’t done ANY awards at all that I was nominated for. Sorry SORRY! Oh god, I feel so bad now.

WTF. I’ve been nominated for the Emoji Tag and the Blogger Recognition Award and the Liebster Award and I HAVEN’T DONE ANY OF THEM!!!

Okay. I feel terrible. I feel so ungrateful but I’m not – I’M SO HAPPY that you guys nominated me. Thank you all so much.

But I feel too crappy to do them. OH GOD, that sounds worse.

I don’t. have an excuse. I just feel a little crappy, but that’s no reason to not do the awards.

You know what? I’m going to start accepting awards FROM NOW ON. I promise. So after this, if you nominate me, I’ll do the award. I’ll try. I’ll try my best.

I’m so, so, so, so sorry. Oh god I feel SO bad now!

*breathe*

From Elm πŸ™‚

PS: Thank you so much for all your help on my last post! I felt so guilty after posting it, but I managed.

Casually Nearly in Tears

So I’m ALMOST crying, but I’m not quite there yet – and before you ask, I’m not sad. I’m happy. I’m SO, SO happy.

Because this blog – this fricking, tiny, inconsequential, unrelatable blog written by ME: the 15-year-old blind weirdo with no life – THIS BLOG has reached 500 followers.

500.

Five. HUNDRED.

You know, I often say that the follower count doesn’t matter. It DOESN’T. But when you reach a milestone like this, you’re just sitting here like “Wait WHAT?????!!!!”

Because, um, WAIT WHAAAAT??!?!!!! Okay. CALM. CALM!!!

I actually don’t care how many followers ANY blog has. 1, 10, 100, 1000 – okay, I’ll admit I’m slightly scared of the four-digit blogs because FOUR DIGITS! Wait, you aren’t scared of me, are you?

Panic over. But seriously, you guys can talk to me whenever you want. Whenever. I’ll always make time for you and will always support you with your problems, because it’s what I’m HERE for.

I love you all. Whether you were here from the beginning, or whether you’ve just arrived to this slightly strange corner of the Internet, I love you and think you are AMAZING.

For those that HAVE stuck with this for a long time, thank you. Thank you for putting up with my breakdowns, and my heartbreaks and breakups and miserable posts which make no sense, and for ALWAYS supporting me no matter what, and for NEVER judging me. You are the best friends I could ever have asked for.

This blog is my home. These people are my family. We’re all one giant community and it’s amazing to be part of it.

You all know what I’m like – you’ve all seen my thoughts, laid out here, and I’m so glad of that.

Nearly crying again, as ya do.

Thank you. Thank you so much. Keep being yourselves and keep being wonderful human beings.

Love from Elm πŸ™‚

This is the Time of The, Er, Internet?

Heyy guys! πŸ™‚

Your responses to my last post was so amazing that it nearly made me cry. Thank you, thank you, I love you all so much!!! Keep being the wonderful people you are because I couldn’t have ever asked for better friends.

In contrast to yesterday, today’s post isn’t going to be as serious (I like writing those posts, but not 2 days in a row).

So. I’m not on holiday at the moment, but the majority of my friends are: Red’s in Lanzarote, Willow’s in Wales, Odd‘s in Spain, Pine’s… Don’t actually know WHERE she is.

From the time I’ve got back from France to now, I have done NOTHING. Except blog, skype people, play games, meet people on games – okay okay, we don’t talk about that… ANYWAY!

Point is, I’ve basically done nothing but go on the Internet. I’m going to see my friend tomorrow – she’s one of my oldest friends – so that will PROBABLY motivate me to get off my arse and do something.

I’m probably supposed to be looking over my biology notes for “revision for next year” but right now, I can’t be bothered – WHAT! I’ve done nothing!

Have any of you guys done anything this holiday?

Such wow, I’m such a lazy bugger. I should, er, go for a walk or something? Someone motivate me to do something?

I have to say it again: I really love you guys. You are honestly the most awesome, inspirational, amazing and lovely people I have ever had the opportunity to meet. Never would I have thought that my blog could have such a positive response from everyone, and that makes me so happy.

You’re all great.

From the laziest Elm you’ll ever meet πŸ™‚